I thought I'd start writing here since I started thinking about indroducing healthy masturbation in my life a bit and I'm still considering if it's a good idea and not a slippery slope back to porn.
A quick recap of recent years:
Since my last posting I had a long dryspell (around 1,5 years with my then girlfriend, the one circulating about this thread from the very beginning) and I was coming back to PMO on an off while knowing it's bad. When we finally split (thank god
) up I continued for a short while, had a few ONSs and a short FWB story and in the end I met someone and we really hit it off
I even consulted my therapost if it's a good idea to enter a relationship, he didn't oppose. It's then I decided (again
) that it's time to quit for good.
I also lost my job (another good thing) and I decided to go to Mexico alone for three months and used that time to go full hard mode from half of September all the way to the beginning of December.
It was as amazing as it was easy, since travelling solo gave me such huge amount of experiences I didn't really crave PMO and was not even touching myself naughty. Also before I left me and the girl decided we want to make it serious and give it a try so I didn't have a chance (nor craving) to try something with Mexican girls or tourists, another good thing.
Right now I'm PMO and MO free for around 5 months now. No craving, porn-related dreams, residual thoughts are quickly dismissed and I only fantasize about my GF.
I came back, we're still together
We struggle a bit with sex (she's going through a stressful time) - I don't PMO or MO even and as long as we used condoms, all was well but now we're going on a pill and I'm a bit anxious if I'd be able to not come too early
Also I'm most of the time on cialis, but I try to limit the doses. She knows I don't fap, though she's not familiar with the reason and the pills.
That's why I was considering trying introducing healthy MO to my life, thinking of my GF, stay off porn etc. But I have doubts and first I want to try and rearrange our thinking about sex - for example making me come first so when we go for penetration sex I'd have a bit of an edge taken off
Also I've been reading about slow sex and we plan to introduce certain practices.
Wish me luck and tell me what do you think of healthy (or not?) MO while in a relationship
Cheers!
Wabba