Again...

d2222

Member
Tried stopping before... Had a pretty good run last year. Trying again. I know I'm addicted, even though I hate to admit it. Here we go again. One day and counting... Wish me luck!
 

matteo

Member
Good luck. I'm new here, but we're in the same predicament (if that's English - I'm from the Netherlands so I'm not always shure).
 
Good luck!
For me it is easier when I'm focusing on filling my life with other things.. and not so much thinking about what I need NOT to do...

-jay
 

d2222

Member
Two days and counting... Feeling increasingly better about my decision. So tired of having this dark secret. So much to live for. Good days ahead!
 

matteo

Member
Nice, how sharing here helps. It hope it will stay that way, also when temptation starts again. That's why I try to be here every day. Make being here a habit to be able to tackle things earlier than too late... :)
 

d2222

Member
Good point. Last time, I didn't visit this site each day, and I think that made a difference. It's hard since the internet is so entrenched in our lives, but I know I have to remember that the joy of not letting porn control my life is greater than the perceived joy I felt when it was in my life.
 

matteo

Member
At this moment I feel that joy. In The Netherlands it's now 10 pm and I'm almost going to bed. My wife is at a congress in Belgium and I'm alone. Always a risk factor. But tonight I went out eating by myself and went to the movies. I walked through my old town this evening and enjoyed the monuments. I felt grateful for my life, and I still do. Now I'm at home and at peace. A bit of reading and then off to sleep, because it's very early morning tomorrow. So. Let's keep it up!
 

d2222

Member
You're right. That's always when I lose control--when I'm alone--and since no one else knows about my addiction, neither they nor I take any precautions before I'm by myself. What really worries me is that I keep pushing the limit. I know I'll eventually get caught, but I don't consider that when I'm looking at porn. I know it's wrong, even when I'm in the middle of it, but I always think, "Well, I'll stop after this one last time...".

I guess that's the definition of an addiction.
 

matteo

Member
For me it's a big relief that I'm here now. No one knows of my addiction too. Or at least not about it's severeness. My wife knows I watch porn ocassionally, and she doesn't consider it a big problem. But that's because she doesn't know everything about it. The time I sometimes spend on it - and the money. But as I said. For me I feel support in knowing that I'm not the only one with the problem - and trying to fight it! We live in a culture where a lot of things are fine, and I shouldn't make a fuss about porn. But I hate my habit and I like that other men hate it to.
 
Yes we all hate this but now we know how to get rid of it!

The "alone" factor indeed is critical. For me the old addiction somehow rose its head drastically when I was living in another country for a few monhts. Now getting back home with more than 20 straight days and feel pretty good about myself.

Keep focused and visit the site when ever you have a slightest urge to watch some P.
Good luck!

-jay
 
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