1qqq1 said:
Also MO is so closely related to P my brain sees no distinction. I never did one without the other or at least fantasy.
1qq1,
No truer words were spoken. As I said, I thought MO was fine. But since eliminating PMO it became the new P. Sounds kind of strange but
MO needs to go.
I remember when I was really young. I had a "
trigger alert" a fantasy regarding MO. I would be on a raised bed grinding against a pillow with beautiful naked women all around the bed. Not sex with these women, but just MO. I started MO very early in life. The first time I thought I was going to pee but nothing came out. Don't remember my age but I remember the event and surrounding vividly. Honestly, at that point in my life, I wasn't sure what sex was. Why would I dream of anything else. However, latter, I began to wonder why I would MO and not have physical contact with naked women."
trigger alert."
That was a long time ago so moving on...
I got up early today and started a run routine. I have a dog that loves to get out and hang with me so I have a buddy that will
always want to exercise. I know that as I start this XMO process I need some other "addiction." I also know health wise I need to work on getting into shape. It is obvious that physical activities will be the most efficient insurance to assure an active old age.
One other point I would like to make.
I was on this site at the beginning of my reboot and left for about 3 weeks. I came back with a different name to be a bit more anonymous. During that time away, I realized how much I missed the support of others. Communication is the key to beating this thing and while my wife is supportive, she isn't close enough to really understand what I am up against. What I need is dialog with folks in similar situations.
Thanks for your input. You will never know how much your words have helped me today.