newageoutlaw
New Member
Greetings,
My Story:
I?ve been watching porn since I was 8 (I?m 24 now). It initially started with porn videos that would come on late at night. I would rub hum the floor and masturbate prone. Years later, we got high speed internet and I was introduced to google image search. I was able to instantly search for any kind of porn I wanted. It was my first time having access to gay porn, I felt very excited and overwhelmed. I instantly became hooked. Everyday after to school I would rush home, just to watch naked men. I wouldn?t even just watch the porn to get off. I would constantly, stare at gay porn for hours. Eventually, video sharing sites became popular, and I was able to watch real porn videos instead of images of scenes. This definitely increased my addition.
I had my first sexual encounter at 18 - I was unable to cum. From there on, every sexual encounter I had I would never be able to cum at all. The whole time I had been masturbating prone and continued to masturbate that way until I was 21. I found healthy strokes and there I learned I had been masturbating the wrong way the whole time. I eventually learned how to masturbate the proper way and thought I was finally cured! This was not the case, as I still had difficulties cumming with my partners. A year later, the people from that website then pointed me to yourbrainonporn and there is where I learned what the real root of my problem was. I tried rebooting off and on within the last year or so, but I found I would always relapse a little over a month. However, I did find that the limited time I would reboot, I would feel more horny and allowed me to cum. I now am able to cum sometimes with partners, however it always feels forced or I have to think about the porn I?ve watched. I broke up with my boyfriend about 11 months ago and because of the breakup, I felt hopeless and went back to watching porn?. until NOW!
I decided that I?m going to get rid of this problem once and for all! I am currently on my second week of rebooting. I plan to never watch porn again. I have even set blocks on my computer this time to prevent me from trying to get on any porn site. The only problem I have now is that I am currently starting to see someone new. This makes it hard for me to completely reboot and not jerk off at all, as we are starting to get intimate. When we do get intimate, I have no problem getting hard and aroused. However, I do lose my erection in the middle of our sessions. It also takes me very long to cum (I still feel like I have to force it sometimes). I know being intimate with my new partner will delay the process of recovery. However, I am hoping that by only limiting my sexual experiences with a real person (instead of porn) it will help rewire and condition my brain.
We can do this!! ;D
My Story:
I?ve been watching porn since I was 8 (I?m 24 now). It initially started with porn videos that would come on late at night. I would rub hum the floor and masturbate prone. Years later, we got high speed internet and I was introduced to google image search. I was able to instantly search for any kind of porn I wanted. It was my first time having access to gay porn, I felt very excited and overwhelmed. I instantly became hooked. Everyday after to school I would rush home, just to watch naked men. I wouldn?t even just watch the porn to get off. I would constantly, stare at gay porn for hours. Eventually, video sharing sites became popular, and I was able to watch real porn videos instead of images of scenes. This definitely increased my addition.
I had my first sexual encounter at 18 - I was unable to cum. From there on, every sexual encounter I had I would never be able to cum at all. The whole time I had been masturbating prone and continued to masturbate that way until I was 21. I found healthy strokes and there I learned I had been masturbating the wrong way the whole time. I eventually learned how to masturbate the proper way and thought I was finally cured! This was not the case, as I still had difficulties cumming with my partners. A year later, the people from that website then pointed me to yourbrainonporn and there is where I learned what the real root of my problem was. I tried rebooting off and on within the last year or so, but I found I would always relapse a little over a month. However, I did find that the limited time I would reboot, I would feel more horny and allowed me to cum. I now am able to cum sometimes with partners, however it always feels forced or I have to think about the porn I?ve watched. I broke up with my boyfriend about 11 months ago and because of the breakup, I felt hopeless and went back to watching porn?. until NOW!
I decided that I?m going to get rid of this problem once and for all! I am currently on my second week of rebooting. I plan to never watch porn again. I have even set blocks on my computer this time to prevent me from trying to get on any porn site. The only problem I have now is that I am currently starting to see someone new. This makes it hard for me to completely reboot and not jerk off at all, as we are starting to get intimate. When we do get intimate, I have no problem getting hard and aroused. However, I do lose my erection in the middle of our sessions. It also takes me very long to cum (I still feel like I have to force it sometimes). I know being intimate with my new partner will delay the process of recovery. However, I am hoping that by only limiting my sexual experiences with a real person (instead of porn) it will help rewire and condition my brain.
We can do this!! ;D