My Journey to Recovery - The One

[The One]

Day 67/

Even thinking about sex is mentally exhausting to me.
Gives me headaches.
I never used to get headaches.
I feel broken.
Looking back, i think I masturbated with death-grip. I dunno. Well fuck. Great.
I feel hopeless. This is unfair.
Hung out with 2 friends today. They are both in relationships and thats all they talked about, was their relationships.
Shut up.
Let's go deeper in the void folks!

 

[CrazyFrog357]

Push through all the sh*t You'll get to the light at the other end of the tunnel eventually. Don't lose hope.

 

[harrygoa]

One thing ....reboot is not over..it takes time to reboot completely..
Also you can start taking zma ..that replinshes zinc in your body which helps to get erections...
I would be using it with my reboot but won't be masturbating..

Also you can try some yoga asans for increasing libido..just Google..I would be using them after a while

I need to actually discuss zma...would it not affect my rebooting .

Gtg...bbye

 

[The One]

Day 73/

Hey all, its been a while.

Since my last post I have had 2 anxiety attacks. My morning woods have been whatever. For some reason i think my penis is looking good when flacid.

I actually have a date tonight in about an hour. Cool.

I worry alot that I will never get better. I just started University classes again and i feel normal for the first time in a long time since the withdrawl symptoms. Mass amounts of social time will be good for me.

I plan on seeing a sex therapist and a urologist soon. Whatever works. I wanna be cured so bad.

I am actually going to be opening an account on yourbrainrebalnced.com and continuing my journaling from there. I just feel more inspiration and support from that website at this time and I need to set up an account there. I will continue operating this account but less frequent.

Dear God, please let me have a normal sex drive and sexual funcioning of a normal 21 year old. Please. Amen.

Onwards I guess.

"If your going through hell, keep going" - Winston Churchill.

I wish everyone here struggling the very best,, and a virtual hug. I know this proccess sucks flacid dick.

Pce.