I ended up making it to day 28. Reading a few of the articles, I made the conscience effort to avoid over sexualized images and video for as long as I could. I ended up perving out a few times, where I couldn't help but stare (which was embarrasing). However, I figured I was making progress since I was perving over real girls then artificial ones. I started a gym routine and have been putting all my effort into lifting and working out and made huge progress. Even picked up the guitar and started learning songs again (something I haven't done in a while). Then, it hit me again.
I knew the effects of withdrawal would hit me hard, but eventually, it got to the point where I convinced myself it was okay to PMO once since I was making huge progress right? I ended up feeling embarrassed and ashamed again. Damn. So I'm back to square one and ended up resetting my counter.
Things to try in the future:
- meditation (does anyone have any advice on this?)
- get out of the house more
- find a safe place to go on the computer where you're not alone
- practice Karezza more seriously (or this?)
P.S: If this is me, browsing though old posts, remember why you're doing this. To feel like a man and make your wife feel loved and see her smile again.
I knew the effects of withdrawal would hit me hard, but eventually, it got to the point where I convinced myself it was okay to PMO once since I was making huge progress right? I ended up feeling embarrassed and ashamed again. Damn. So I'm back to square one and ended up resetting my counter.
Things to try in the future:
- meditation (does anyone have any advice on this?)
- get out of the house more
- find a safe place to go on the computer where you're not alone
- practice Karezza more seriously (or this?)
P.S: If this is me, browsing though old posts, remember why you're doing this. To feel like a man and make your wife feel loved and see her smile again.