just started my reboot

So where do I begin,i guess I can start with the beginning I had started watching porn at a very young age like others I believe I was between 11-12 when I had started watching and masturbating to porn (I am now twenty years old) and just recently have discovered what I have done to myself and feel like a complete idiot. I had tried rebooting a couple months ago but had done it wrong edging to porn but not having an orgasm I now know that is worse then watching porn and having an orgasm, but I have just reached my first week of no porn and no fap I will admit I had fingered a girl the other night and am not sure if that had done me any harm or if that's better? but I already have made changes to my life like going for runs and working out eating better etc. etc. I really want to make this change to better myself and am prepared for the long road ahead of me any input and advice would be greatly appreciated, I will be making this my weekly journal giving updates to how I feel and what I am going through. hope to hear some of your experience's to help with the input thank you in advance :)
 
I am starting to get random urges once and a while during the day when im home by myself I just workout to prevent that urge and it helps me forget about it.

im startng to get morning wood again which is a good thing but I have my doubts (like most recovering) just have to keep it up I know its a long road and am prepared for it.
 
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mtaha2015

Guest
you have to replace that thing with something positive.
good.
stay that way.
 
well almost on my second week and I am starting to feel foggy and a little bit of a headache? iv been keeping myself quite busy and find that I am more ambitious at work which before was never the case so far so good
 
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mtaha2015

Guest
good.
off course after 12 days of no PMO, you energy level will increase.
and you can perform better at work.
enjoy your freedom.
 
well its been a little over two weeks have to say I feel great,still working out and running I think my morning wood has left for the time being I don't know if its just my messed up sleep schedule (I work nights) or if im going into the flatline stage I literally have no urges to watch porn but sometimes have the urge to masturbate when I see a picture of a girl in a bikini or something but I can resist it no problem

I also get flashbacks of porns I have watched but shake it out. but all in all im feeling great :)
 

Ry92

Member
rebooting555 said:
well its been a little over two weeks have to say I feel great,still working out and running I think my morning wood has left for the time being I don't know if its just my messed up sleep schedule (I work nights) or if im going into the flatline stage I literally have no urges to watch porn but sometimes have the urge to masturbate when I see a picture of a girl in a bikini or something but I can resist it no problem

I also get flashbacks of porns I have watched but shake it out. but all in all im feeling great :)

Nice job so far, I'm on day 9 no PMO, (got a bj yesterday though).

We all get urges, but the fact you're distracting yourself is a good step in the right direction. Nice work! Just gotta keep thinking, no PMO & no MO. Keep at it brother!
 
well its been a while since iv posted but I had a few relapses but im finally over it I started over at the beginning of October,i was with a girl a week or so ago and I was fooling around with her and got a semi hard erection twice the two times we hung out but its weird because it was during the beginning of my reboot which I would say is a good sign?
 

BunnyBoy2015

Active Member
Hi rebooting555,

Well done on starting a journal, its a big step towards recovery. Firstly, fingering a girl in my opinion is not a bad thing, it should help you rewire if you are staying away from P. Any sexual contact with a girl is good unless you are forcing an orgasm by fantasising about P or by masturbating.

Secondly, what are you doing a reboot for? Have you had sexual dysfunction e.g. ED or DE? Or are you trying to make sure you think about girls in a more healthy way? What are your goals?

Also what are your coping strategies for keeping away from P, have you made it strong enough or important enough in your mind? You want to make a compelling future for yourself in terms of your goals so that you stay focused in times of temptation.

Let me know...
 
I believe I have ED as I have never had sex before in my life but when I did go to do it about 2 years ago I couldn't get it up for the life of me I thought I was just nervous wasn't ready etc but turns out it was all the porn all along as I can barely or not at all get an erection with touch and maintaining it is impossible,and im doing the reboot for the ED and on how I look at woman and treat them.

as far as coping strategies I don't really have any im basically at the point where I WANT to do this not just for myself but the girl I have feelings for and that's something im not use to and so far it has worked great if I get an urge which this time hasn't come around at all I just get off the computer and occupy myself as I have started working out eating much cleaner I still go out every once and a while and have a few drinks with friends as far as right now im thinking my recovery will be a year.

its actually quite funny because when I look back at highschool during the summer I binged heavily into porn but a few summers my computer had broken for the whole two months and I remember going through these symptoms then but just thought it was me being horny and it had happened too me twice so I think that may have some affect on me in a positive wa.
 
so last night I was fooling around with the same girl fingering etc and afterwards my balls were sore and I mean like someone just kicked them kind of sensation which I ruled out I think was blue balls is that completely normal or?
 

BunnyBoy2015

Active Member
Hi rebooting555,

Yes that is blue balls, I had that a lot at the beginning. It gets easier, or at least has done for me. Well done for getting a little foreplay, it all helps.
 
well I am on day 16 and haven't really had morning wood in a couple days since the blue balls incident and am kinda scared I did something to my dick lol but I know its a normal feeling and refuse to watch porn to see if my erection will come back
 
well I am almost at 20 days and iv been seeing signs of improvement when im with the girl its obviously not fully erect but its got some signs of life which is a big improvement to me personally compared to a few years ago,my morning wood has kind of gone away but im not entirely worried but im feeling great and want to keep going this time.
 
well day 21 woke up with a full morning wood felt great :p but almost had a relapse was looking at pictures of naked girls with solo masturbation for about 5 mins just before I came over to start pmo I closed myself off before I did anymore damage I highly doubt I did much because I didn't edge or anything and only got somewhat aroused, but so far so good im going to install k9 to help me out here any input would be great.
 
well I just reached 25 days and beat my last personal and I feel GREAT I had a dream this morning that I was masturbating to porn and broke my streak and made me feel absolutely horrible then woke up feeling realizing it was a dream thank god. I have been getting more consistant morning wood lately which is a positive note :)still working out and eating as best as I can life is actually feeling pretty good right now not going to lie.
 
so last night was probably one of the better nights in a while I was fooling around with my friend and next thing I know I have a full blown erection it was the biggest sigh of relief to know that this is working and making me into not just a better sexually but as a person I am currently on day 27 and have pushed for may before I have sex but will continue to rewire with this girl if I feel im ready I may do it efore hand but not until im atleast 100 days + :)
 
so I have a question for anyone that can answer this personally but  I haven't had massive urges like some people talk about when it comes to watching porn but I have had slight urges obviously but could this be to me trying it before with a few weeks here and a week there has helped my process now? iv just reached 30 days and I do not think it is a flatline because I still got morning wood. any answer I would greatly appreciate :)
 
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