Hello everyone,
my name is Tom, I'm 31 years old and really glad to have found this forum.
It's 3am here and I'm sitting in front of my computer screen and trying to make a change in the patterns of my behavior.
The problems have been piling up through out the years and a short summary of my 12 year old porn addiction are these: erectile dysfunction but only with real life partners (this is my diagnosis though), often enough porn interferes with my daily duties and results in me doing maybe 30 or 40% of the things I planned to do and finally long porn sessions almost always leave me feeling empty, weak and lacking energy and initiative and feeling somehow alienated from others. Also, there is a concern about the total lack of excitement around women and the lack of libido which I used to have. And finally, there is a problem that my fantasies are becoming more perverted, more violent towards women and more unrealistic, which I'm sure is related to the ED that I've mentioned, because this is not how it works out in real life most of the time nor I'm the type of person that is satisfied with my fantasies being that way. Also, on top of all that, this porn and masturbation obsession are a way to handle depression and a tool to avoid resolving and dealing with problems that occur in my life.
Since it's so late, I wanted to type this post as a guarantee that I will come back and persevere in my intention to change. It's kind of a big deal that I've even found this place because usually my Internet search would just end up on some sites that are basically commercials for pills or similar products. Tomorrow will be my first day without masturbation and I hope that this forum (combined with my will, of course) will help me stop for a much longer time.
Once more, hello to all the members and I will definitely type more tomorrow after a good night sleep
my name is Tom, I'm 31 years old and really glad to have found this forum.
It's 3am here and I'm sitting in front of my computer screen and trying to make a change in the patterns of my behavior.
The problems have been piling up through out the years and a short summary of my 12 year old porn addiction are these: erectile dysfunction but only with real life partners (this is my diagnosis though), often enough porn interferes with my daily duties and results in me doing maybe 30 or 40% of the things I planned to do and finally long porn sessions almost always leave me feeling empty, weak and lacking energy and initiative and feeling somehow alienated from others. Also, there is a concern about the total lack of excitement around women and the lack of libido which I used to have. And finally, there is a problem that my fantasies are becoming more perverted, more violent towards women and more unrealistic, which I'm sure is related to the ED that I've mentioned, because this is not how it works out in real life most of the time nor I'm the type of person that is satisfied with my fantasies being that way. Also, on top of all that, this porn and masturbation obsession are a way to handle depression and a tool to avoid resolving and dealing with problems that occur in my life.
Since it's so late, I wanted to type this post as a guarantee that I will come back and persevere in my intention to change. It's kind of a big deal that I've even found this place because usually my Internet search would just end up on some sites that are basically commercials for pills or similar products. Tomorrow will be my first day without masturbation and I hope that this forum (combined with my will, of course) will help me stop for a much longer time.
Once more, hello to all the members and I will definitely type more tomorrow after a good night sleep