Wolverine reborn

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Wolverine

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Thanks Phoenix

As always you have been very helpful, I am happy for you when looking at your counter:) That motivates me even more because I know that you have been where I am now and you have found strength to stand up and fight, this is what I am doing now - fighting one day at time.

Thx again bro
 
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virtueorvice

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Hi Wolverine,

have you ever tried learning an instrument or learning a new language. I think learning to play the guitar or keyboards can really help and fasten the wiring/rewiring of brain. It is also helpful when we have feelings of boredom and loneliness, keeping us busy.
 
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Wolverine

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I actually did try to play both piano and than guitar. I love music and I though that it would be easier and more pleasant to learn. Unfortunately it was boring and frustrating so I dropped it. In my case most effective activity is workout, running or some other physical activity
 
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virtueorvice

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The beginning is boring and frustrating, but it's a huge challenge for the brain.

Anyway, whatever you are doing to help you avoid the trap is just as fine and rewarding.

I see your marker and that you are increasing your days and hours which is great. Keep it up!

 
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Wolverine

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10 days done!
Now I  need to be very carefu, cravings are getting stronger...
 
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Wolverine

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Failed  after 15 good days. Now I need to get back on track which is not so easy... need to stay focused and calm.
 
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Wolverine

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It has been a while since I was here...some ups and downs happend during that time, but generally I am good. My good streaks are getting longer and longer which is a sign of progress. Recently I has a relapse but I am trying to look from wider perspective and this looks ok. What I knew but for some reason did not use is a power o meditation, this makes huge difference when it comes to stress mannagement. Now I will do my meditation mor frequent and see what will happened.

Good luck Guys.
 
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Wolverine

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Relapse after a good streak of 18 days that is dissapointing, I need to avoid chaser effect now. It is really incredible, during the clean period I felt like porn is not so attractive anymore, even few hour befor the relapse, and than suddenly it hits me so hard the urge is so strong in a minute mu mind is all about it and I can clearly feel dopamine hit in my brain.
 
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Wolverine

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This is the fact now, whenever I relapse some other bad experience i following it. I think this is a clear message from god that I should quit this shit for good. Please god help me to do that when my weakness comes.
 
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virtueorvice

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Wolverine, stay strong!

Why don't you elaborate on your problems in your journal?! OK, if you relapsed, identify the triggers and your weaknesses and write them down in your journal. That helps...

 
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TiramiSu

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I totally agree with what you say to. Identify triggers. Write about them. Talk about me. Even if you relapse It will help you identify and you will feel better.I am writing down each single trigger.
 
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TiramiSu

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"Relapse after a good streak of 18 days that is dissapointing, I need to avoid chaser effect now. It is really incredible, during the clean period I felt like porn is not so attractive anymore, even few hour befor the relapse, and than suddenly it hits me so hard the urge is so strong in a minute mu mind is all about it and I can clearly feel dopamine hit in my brain."

I can totally relate to that. That was the same with me. a couple of hours before I would also think it is not so attractive to me anymore and then my brain stopped thinking.  My advise for you is: write more.  Then you will automatically stop. You will see. At least that was the case for me. I am now at 48 days. The biggest factor for this has been writing about it. Writing helps me to rationalize my thinking.

But really good news for you: you are totally not alone. These sentences that you wrote could have just been my sentences.
 
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Wolverine

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Hello myfriends here I am again using porn felling empty and out of control. This is caused by the fact that I am now quiting antidepressants and feeling withdrawal effects. Generally I feell like my anxiety and ocd are coming... not happy about it. I need to pray to god for help, and take more care about myself. I hope It will pass and I will be again in a good track.
 
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Wolverine

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I was bored and alone that triggered me. Usually I am able to stay 10 up to 14 days max, than I need to watch some porn to feel the relief again, I dont really know what from I was trying figure this out but I still dont know what I am escaping from.
 
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Wolverine

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Finally I have decided to block all my devices so I can not reach any porn. This I hope will help me to control something that is not in my control. I have made my wife administrator so she is keeping K9 password and on my mobile.

Recently I was in a bad mood due to widrawal symptom after quitting antidepressants. I hope this is past now so I can start with a new energy.
 
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Wolverine

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Today I have been really tempted by circumstances around me. I almost slip again, I believe God somehow saved me from my stupidity and weakness. Still need to be very careful because I will spend one week here in foreign place loaded with stress related to my work.
God please take it from me take it away, this is so hard my head is so heavy, I feel like me brain is boiling inside my skull...
 
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