All the best man, sounds like you got yourself an addiction, but you can get through it, it?s going to be a ruff ride!
i can understand your thoughts about the fantasy/fetish you have with your wife and sounds pretty scary to me too. but let?s take a look at that when you rebooted
the thing with the browser and typing in stuff/clicking on stuff and tricking yourself is common. you need to take some actions and preventation on this. p-blocker, reminder on sticky notes and maybe also the goal that you wanna feel your girl more deeply when it comes to emotions
one week, thats just the beginning!