Sad news,
Yesterday I gave in to masturbation. I did not watch any porn but still let myself masturbate. Let me clarify to anyone reading this that I do not believe masturbation itself is bad, but it is truly slowing my reboot.
To reflect on yesterday, I had a frustrating conversation with a friend who is not the healthiest person emotionally. Long story short, I used to attend a church that was a pretty negative environment. The people were very negative and dysfunctional. I got used to being around these people to the point where I did not feel comfortable leaving (leaving was discouraged). Yesterday I finally told one of them who texted me about my decision. She in all honesty did not value my reasoning or feelings for leaving. Thankfully I do not live in the same city as these people anymore and therefore do not have to communicate with them. I don't know if this is a coincidence, or if it caused a lapse in my reasoning to give in to masturbation.
Anyway, I plan on starting a 30 day no masturbation challenge again. I've noticed that I usually give in from day 7-10. I plan on preparing myself for them. I need to use more techniques to avoid the urge.
-B