Motivation Collapse !

samkido

New Member
Hi .. thanks for this good willing website ... I would like to be open telling my story!
This is Sam 39 years old, healthy athlete and daily PORN ADDICTED!! Single with no intercourse for the past 5 years due to you relationship broke up! I am heavy smoker of around 30 cigarettes a day! I do not consume alcohol at all!
Everything was wonderful until two years ago!!

In the past two years, I've found that my sudden and sever headache is due to Migraine so I started to take a pill almost everyday in summer and sunny days. Then suddenly I went through a bad time of Palindromic Rheumatism in my fingers and toes and I started to take NSAID for more than 6 months. After that I had a very bad kidney stone stopped just at the mouth of the bladder and two of them, and that pain is killing so I took many stone dissolvers and a lot of pain killers during a month.

Three months ago, I've started to feel like my sex drive is far beyond what it was before.
I have a morning erection but it is not hard as before.
I have lost the sensitivity, full girth, full erection, and the continuous erection. I am still masturbating but no full erection like before.

Nowadays, I have started say for a month doing some fitness exercises but with no progress in my sex drive. I am trying to stop all of those pills I am taking during the past two years but sometimes it is must to have some of them.

I would like to know what is the main possibility of the problem. Is it the porn addiction or the medications?

Thanks for your time to read my story.....
 

Rainiegirl

Member
my SO has a lot of problems too so I have been looking into a few differnt things. First look at all the info at yourbrainonporn because a lot of your symptoms come from the addiction itself. The meds your taking might also be making things worse rather than better. Another thing that Im finding is how repressed emotions can cause a lot of problems in the body resulting in symptoms like migraines, fibromyalgia and IBS. It makes me wonder if the emotion numbing affect of addiction might also cause the same result.
 

samkido

New Member
Rainiegirl, thanks for your kind attention.

You went so deep into my words digging the psychological hidden part. And you are right! As I relocated to one of the worst places in the world, my home town, Mosul - Iraq after working and living in Dubai for six years.
And you know what, I've experienced all of these health problem just two months after my return! I am carrying a bid burden on my shoulders living here and spending a lot of time brainstorming trying to establish my new life here. Unfortunately, I failed to compromise with the conditions here.

All my fears now, is to know whether this problem is gonna be permanent or not!?
 

Rainiegirl

Member
Ive found that I often repress emotions myself. If I have no one to talk to about them, or if I feel uncofortable doing so, I will write them down. It works for me very well. Normally my headache or back pain will dissappear soon after.  I think that as long as you acnowledge what your feeling, and realese it in a healthy manner, you will heal without lasting affects. Find something that works for you. I see alot of men on here talking about medatation, or exercise.
 

samkido

New Member
Well, I am doing some fitness and kickboxing exercise but things are not getting better.
The way you already recommended in writing down my problems was so effective with me before, but I've stopped doing so for a long time.
Reading your fruitful comments, I've started to think about visiting a psychologist to go further.
Thanks for listening and sorry for reflecting all that personal stuff in here !
 
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