It all starts here

If you're reading the 30-39 journals, hopefully you get the Goonies reference in the subject line. I'm not sure where to start. I'm brand new to this site and not very tech savvy so I hope I'll get it all figured out as this site and its videos has given me a new hope.
The last nine months have been by far the worst of my life. I have been battling major depressive disorder as well as generalized anxiety. My marriage is a mess, I haven't been the greatest father and my stress levels have been sky high. The worst part for me is that I never saw it coming, I've always been the guy that other people rely on and turn to for help and now I need help but I'm too proud and ashamed to ask for it.
I started viewing internet porn at a young age. Ever since I've gone through cycles of pmo and then being ashamed to the point that I'd stop for a while until something triggered me again. I've always felt bad about pmo but until just recently I had no idea how damaging it has been for me. I just thought I was dealing with a lot of different issues in my life. Never did it occur to me that porn addiction was at the root of it all. This is the very beginning of my journey to heal myself and my relationships. I believe that my recovery from depression, anxiety, ED, and the key to rebuilding my marriage lies in rebooting my life and reconnecting with my faith.
 
47 days in, over half way to 90!!! I know that 90 is not my final goal but it is a milestone along the way. I feel that the progress I've made is noticeable in my life, I'm so grateful that I found this site and I feel blessed to be doing so well. I continue to pray that the Lord will give me strength to stay strong. I pray for others on this site too. Any advice on what to expect for the second half of my reboot, b those who have been through it would be appreciated. Thanks and God bless.
 
78 days in a straight line. They fall like water, yes I guess I fucked up again. Time to start over. I'm very disappointed in myself. The only thing I know to do is to keep trying.
 
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