hey dudes mine is a long story found porn at a young age say 7 or 8 so masturbation was part of my life for a long time. as i got older i had a gay expierience but it meant nothing to me cause i didnt understand sex. it was mainly images i jerked off to so the years went on struggled to get girls attention felt weak so didnt have sex with a girl till i was 19 but their was alot of porn but it didnt affect me so i was seeing this girl but she was just a sex machine to me i didnt know how to treat her so when we had sex i found myself not to be excited as i was when i watched porn i found it awful hard to get turned on by girl on girl it had to be man and women well lets put it this way i paniced and we fell apart so i hit the porn hard after a few months it a penis that turned me on when it penetrated a vagina and then it got worse i got a gay thought 1 day and i freaked cause i met a girl and struggled to get turned on so hocd kicked in i suffered for years bad depression lost interest in myself bad case of anxous around same sex i wouldnt leave the house and the more porn i watched i was even thinking of taking my own life. so i was searching the internet like crazy i couldnt understand what happened i wasnt happy not like i was when i was younger my like had changed. so i found gabe i made one attempt 30 day but was watching porn and touching ended that streak. but i started again april 15 and still goinging didnt watch porn but found hocd like to come out and play sometimes but im in flatline for about 38 days now and i seem to have no sexual interest at all and i get a bit anxous when i see fellas with t-shirt off but thats to do with hocd because when ever it would strike porn was my exit as i taught but it just made be more depressed i think i have alot of damaged done so i dont know when this flatline is goinging to end but i could do with some support did anyone else have same problem when will my sexual craving for women come back i dont think 90 days will cut it for me, and the way i am gay just doesnt fit me its not what i feel im into i have no interest in lads apart from hocd so if anyone is the same as me please leave me a message ???
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when will my sexual craving for women come back i dont think 90 days will cut it for me
Forget 90 days. It is a random number and ment more like "I dare you to not fap for 90 days" than for healing actual problems. How long does it take? Until it is done, which in many cases is longer. The best way is to start living a life without porn, then counting days becomes irrelevant.
and the way i am gay just doesnt fit me its not what i feel im into i have no interest in lads apart from hocd
You are not gay, since you are not sexually interested in men. I know your OCD prevents you from simply seeing and accepting it that way, but that is how it is. I never had to deal with HOCD, so I can only tell you, that it gets better and goes away during a reboot. Meaning no more porn of any kind, straight, gay, in-between, doesn't matter - no more porn. Give your brain a rest and do something else.
Hi mate - how's it going? Your story is reallu similar to mine and Im interested to hear if the HOCD is reducing any? I know we shouldn't measure these things in days but I am keen to gauge what level other people are at and if whatvthy say on YBOP.com has any actual truth in it and if I can actually self cure through this reboot! Thanks!