Weird Thoughts.

[Colb24]

So I think I'm starting to see why porn is bad for me and the damage that has been done. As far as getting erections they come and go. They're never 100%, maybe 75 at the most. At times I can get it up with just touch. That's a good thing.

Mentally I think I've suffered more damage than I thought. The thought of someone else having sex with a girl I'm dating gave me a boner. I small one but still. I was mortified. It pissed me off so bad. I never want anyone having sex with her but me. No one. Is it because I'm used to watching other men have sex with women and me just beating it? Whatever the reason, I never want to feel like that again.

I want to be saved from this feeling. I hate it. Even when I get it, it feels so disgusting and demented. It's like a shock in my head and I hate this feeling. I haven't watched porn in almost two weeks. I never want to watch it again. I haven't beat it in three days so that's a start.

I hope to be able to have sex in the two month to three month range. It's going to be a struggle, but I think I can do it. I definitely have new motivation as well. I hope to be a lot healthier next time I post.

 

[Chris Jay]

Porn can cause such over sexualized thoughts.Its all apart of withdrawal.

 

[Gabe Deem]

Hey Colb24,

At times I can get it up with just touch. That's a good thing.

That is a great thing, you are better off than many.

I want to be saved from this feeling

To be saved from it, turn away from it... Do not pursue it anymore, ignore it and let your brain reboot. Use teh energy and time you used to put into pmo into other healthy things. It is amazing what a man is capable of when he does not have a numbed brain.

I haven't watched porn in almost two weeks. I never want to watch it again. I haven't beat it in three days so that's a start.

Thats a great start! I suggest continuing to avoid beating it also. It will speed up your reboot and it is taking the easy way out. Use that sexual energy in pursuing a loving partner or working on other things in your life. Avoiding M will help you recover from ED faster too, or so it appears from many recovery stories and my experience.

Welcome to the Nation.

 

[TAKID]

At times I can get it up with just touch. That's a good thing.

Be thankful bro. I don't have any feeling down below. Hoping that this reboot will bring back some sort of sensitivity.