Hi, my story will be short.
Met a girl a little over a year ago. We started dating, had a great time and less great times, but overall I was having the greatest time in my life. Finally met a girl I really liked and she liked me back. I'm 25, so my first serious GF I had was at 24. Well, my ONLY girlfriend. We started off nice and good. But after about a few months of having sex I started having problems with ED. We had some talks about porn and all. She didn't even know I watched it. I did and I thought it was pretty common (and it is - too common actually among ppl) so I had no worries. My erection problems only worsened and she started searching and reading about porn and its effect on users and found yourbrainonpron site. I read some and came to a complete turn around about dangers of porn. I realized I was (AM actually) addicted too it. Had problems when tried to reboot. She wasn't happy. Still have problems. But I am confident I will manage.
Here comes the current problem I have. She broke up with me a week ago and I didn't even suspect it. The relationship was totally utterly heavenly beautiful through my eyes. My heart has never been so broken and I feel like dying. It's sooooo hard these days. And to make things "worse". On the day of the break up, I had the biggest record of one week of no orgasm. Before that I couldn't manage more than 3 days. On the day after the break up, my morale fell down like shit and I masturbated twice. After that, until today, I had no interest in masturbation at all, because my mind and heart is so broken I can't even think about it. But today I did it again once.
My question comes here. I am certain I want to overcome my problem. I don't want to disappoint my next GF that will come down the line and overall I want to be in COMPLETE control of my life. No addictions whatsoever. Interestingly, I have a very "strong" mind when it comes to alcohol or drugs. I use alcohol, magic mushrooms, ecstasy and marijuana, but I never need them out of addiction or never had nor have any immediate urges to take some. Can easily go long times not using any and can have great fun if sober too.
Ok, so the question. In these days of being broken hearted I need anything that will make my mind go off constant thinking about the good memories and my now ex GF. I need a good distraction. And I've been thinking that using porn and masturbating can do the job in these next few weeks of recovery. How smart or stupid it is is what I'm asking? Knowing that I never went more than a week without porn. So I won't make a lot of damage if I continue for a few weeks. I really need a certain fall back from the bad depression I am currently in. It is SOOOOO hard to live life like this.
EDIT: Have to clarify she didn't brake up with me because of my problems with ED and porn. She explained I just wasn't the right for her. That our personalities were just too different and so on.
Met a girl a little over a year ago. We started dating, had a great time and less great times, but overall I was having the greatest time in my life. Finally met a girl I really liked and she liked me back. I'm 25, so my first serious GF I had was at 24. Well, my ONLY girlfriend. We started off nice and good. But after about a few months of having sex I started having problems with ED. We had some talks about porn and all. She didn't even know I watched it. I did and I thought it was pretty common (and it is - too common actually among ppl) so I had no worries. My erection problems only worsened and she started searching and reading about porn and its effect on users and found yourbrainonpron site. I read some and came to a complete turn around about dangers of porn. I realized I was (AM actually) addicted too it. Had problems when tried to reboot. She wasn't happy. Still have problems. But I am confident I will manage.
Here comes the current problem I have. She broke up with me a week ago and I didn't even suspect it. The relationship was totally utterly heavenly beautiful through my eyes. My heart has never been so broken and I feel like dying. It's sooooo hard these days. And to make things "worse". On the day of the break up, I had the biggest record of one week of no orgasm. Before that I couldn't manage more than 3 days. On the day after the break up, my morale fell down like shit and I masturbated twice. After that, until today, I had no interest in masturbation at all, because my mind and heart is so broken I can't even think about it. But today I did it again once.
My question comes here. I am certain I want to overcome my problem. I don't want to disappoint my next GF that will come down the line and overall I want to be in COMPLETE control of my life. No addictions whatsoever. Interestingly, I have a very "strong" mind when it comes to alcohol or drugs. I use alcohol, magic mushrooms, ecstasy and marijuana, but I never need them out of addiction or never had nor have any immediate urges to take some. Can easily go long times not using any and can have great fun if sober too.
Ok, so the question. In these days of being broken hearted I need anything that will make my mind go off constant thinking about the good memories and my now ex GF. I need a good distraction. And I've been thinking that using porn and masturbating can do the job in these next few weeks of recovery. How smart or stupid it is is what I'm asking? Knowing that I never went more than a week without porn. So I won't make a lot of damage if I continue for a few weeks. I really need a certain fall back from the bad depression I am currently in. It is SOOOOO hard to live life like this.
EDIT: Have to clarify she didn't brake up with me because of my problems with ED and porn. She explained I just wasn't the right for her. That our personalities were just too different and so on.