Since peeking , my brain feels swollen

Pisces21

Active Member
Yesterday, one thing led to another and I peeked at a video ( wasn't P but def. a P-sub) but I did click away after snapping out of it and didn't masturbate, but from then (like 4pm) to now (10AM) I have had this odd fullness in my head, like something's swollen - I guess it's brain fog. What startles me is how long it lasted and how difficult it was to sleep last night because of it. It was there when I woke up. I had heart palpitations and near-Insomnia rlly... I hope this goes away soon and has definitely taught me to folly of even peeking. My goodness was it tough not to give in
 

pfree1805

Active Member
I notice that I am so hypersensitive to porn after quitting it, even the slightest peek can cause brain fog. After my last full on porn relapse I had brain fog up until yesterday. I my experience what happens is after we begin the reboot the "desensitization" to porn starts to go away, but the "sensitization" still remains for longer. Therefore we are super sensitive to triggers and our reward system and adrenaline go into hyper mode whenever we see porn.

Honestly account like yours make me realize how bad porn addiction really is, definitely comparable to drug addiction.

Stay strong!
 

Pisces21

Active Member
Good points about the  desensitization and sensitization - you're absolutely right that this is comparable to drug addiction.

Essentially, what I did, I am realizing, was edging( viewing P or P subs w/ no masturbation) - and the frustrating thing about this is that from reading the YBOP article on Edging is that it's actually apparently worse than Ming to orgasm because it keeps these elevated levels of dopamine bathing your brain. Makes me feel like I might as well have masturbated - but I won't. It's not like I edged for HOURS and I hadn't been ( and will NOT be doing it) as a daily practice. The whole spiral started out very unintentionally anyways so I'm just gonna try and tough out these urges, learn my lesson and not edge again as they almost inevitably lead to relapse.
 

Pisces21

Active Member
might I as well orgasm via fapping? I haven't looked at anything since then or edging yet my brain still feels kinda 'on fire', what should I do? will this subside?
 

pfree1805

Active Member
In my opinion any orgasm via mo is only healthy for a porn addict if it comes from natural libido (sometimes even this is only ok after the reboot). You were triggered via porn so I would do anything not to link masturbation back to porn. Unless you feel you absolutely have to mo.
 

Pisces21

Active Member
Right, Im definitely trying to de-couple masturbating and pornography as much as possible.
Another thing is, I am wondering if I should reset my counter. I definitely think that according to some people I should , but I don't think I will. Most people who edge are doing it consistently, and I had never really understood the idea of edging until now, so I think I'll just take it as a learning experience and just commit to not doing it again.
 

Aguy5

Member
Yeah, I know what you mean. I looked at an article on a news site that I should not have. Clicked away, but here I am left with a bad craving. Its just a matter of staying away completely. That's why I came here, to help police myself with others help. And it does seem to work. Things tempt me less often it seems like.
 
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