On the outside looking in...

[HopeSprings]

Does anyone else like me feel marginalised, feel the world has nothing to do with them, I feel like an icebreaker going through a sea of other peoples lives when I walk into town, I don't feel part of humanity it has little relevance to me. I'm friendly and approachable but theres a hollowness inside that just eats me up that only I know. I feel like an observer, I'm not part of this game, I don't have a series of sexual partners and take relationships as part of normal life, I don't have a nice home, I don't have holidays - is that part of me not feeling worthy?. Is this addiction? or is it just the way I am from growing up in a fractured family environment?

 

[pfree1805]

Having experienced this addiction it makes me feel like our society is going in the wrong direction - too much consumption, reliant on virtual worlds and porn to fill voids which should be filled with real human connection. So in a way, I feel just like you, I feel like an outsider, because to recover from an online porn addiction is to move in the opposite direction from where society is headed.

I am really familiar with this hollowness, I think it comes from having few real friends or trusting my family, I feel alone. I'm like you, not depressed, but just hollow.