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achilles heel

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Thank you very much, new reality!

Unfortunately I have some bad news as my longer abstinence from this community wasn’t due to success but rather due to resignation.

Once again it’s Day 0 and I’m running out of faith that new ideas will make any significant change.

Today I’m feeling the need to change and the conviction that it’s not impossible to quit. That I do have a choice and there is a way out.

I will set myself heavier restrictions than ever in terms of cell phone usage and plan everything well in advance.
 
new reality

new reality

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Welcome back.

Have you tried blockers and generally making it harder to relapse or "peek" and so on?

achilles heel said:
Once again it’s Day 0 and I’m running out of faith that new ideas will make any significant change.
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Maybe old ideas could help then! I'm referring to old interests you may have that you might want to revive. You might have better things to think about then.
 
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achilles heel

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new reality said:
Welcome back.

Have you tried blockers and generally making it harder to relapse or "peek" and so on?
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Thank you very much for your support, new reality! My restrictions only help against “accidental” peeks, but lately I find myself desperately and deliberately going back to porn after a few days.

It’s really affecting my everyday life again, yesterday I even appeared late at work due to a binge session in the night. My sex life in marriage is non existent at this point. This is really destroying me and I never thought I could fall back that low.

This really is an emergency and I need to stop right now, writing here every day to keep accountable. Once again it’s Day 0 and there’s hard work required to pull myself out of this once and for all!
 
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achilles heel

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Day 17

Once again: Reducing screen time is the key to success. Currently my daily average is slightly below 2,5 hours and my goal for this week and long term is to reduce daily cell phone usage to a maximum of 2 hours.

Currently I’m not having an easy time, but I’m very confident to advance even further.
 
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achilles heel

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Day 20

First time since the very beginning of the year that I make it to 20 days hard mode. It’s very difficult now and there’s a tough weekend ahead, but I’m ready for it and keep reducing my cell phone usage. If I stick to my restrictions, I will surely make it through!
 
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achilles heel

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Day 0

Thank you very much! Unfortunately I didn’t advance any further, but I’m convinced I had the key to success in my hands and know how to finally break free. I will just follow the rules that made three weeks rather easily possible and build my life around them, without exceptions and excuses. It’s also time to leave my cell phone addiction behind, but both go hand in hand.

It sounds weird to have this conviction after failing hundreds of times, but I’ll write here frequently to hopefully finally turn this into a success story.
 
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achilles heel

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Day 6

Everything is going great so far, I’m working hard, reading a lot, exercising and reduced my cell phone usage below two hours a day. It’s up to me now, I’m free.
 
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achilles heel

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Day 10

Reached a two-digit number again, I’ve got a straight plan: Keep my daily cell phone usage below 2 hours and read in bed. When I wake up and feel any urges, I grab a book and read until I fall asleep again.

My cell phone doesn’t enter bedroom or bathroom, no exceptions.

I’m totally convinced of my success and just need to stick to this plan, no lowering of the guards. And I need to write here to remind myself of the rules.
 
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achilles heel

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Day 22

Normally I’d reset my counter due to relapsing on porn subs, but I managed to not fully escalate and avoid porn. I entered my old Facebook account and watched non nude reels, as a consequence I deleted the account. It happened because I went to a hotel and took my cell phone to bed instead of following my rules.

I’ll go back to my rules and restrictions right now and enter hard mode.
 
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