Thanks a lot, Kraken! In terms of drugs I am still doing well and keep a day count for myself, I’m two months away from 1000 days clean and looking forward to that milestone for sure.
To answer your question about being busy I have to add some personal information I didn’t mention it in the journal as I’m a father by now. There has been a big change in terms of my life overall and my circle of friends as now my wife and I are meeting other parents and I rarely go out to any parties anymore.
I’m currently building a business, do exercise/sports almost every day before sleep and in my rare free time plan family activities. I already read two books this year, currently reading the third and did well in building healthy habits over the last years.
Despite all of that, self organizing work from home led to time alone in front of the computer/cell phone and my worst habit had come back lately on a very regular basis, therefore I’m very happy I finished 25 days clean so far!
I have a huge advantage now compared to some years ago and just need to take this as serious as it gets. As I mentioned in this journal, the almost-accident I suffered four weeks ago was a wake up call for me, I feel like God gave me a second chance and a beautiful life and there is one thing left I have to change. Yes, this is the hardest task I ever faced and I failed hundreds of times - but now it’s time to leave porn behind forever!