LetItGoAlready
Active Member
Hi All,
Some of you may know me from YBR. I was there for a short time, just long enough to build some momentum. I hope to keep that momentum going here with your support and also hope that I can return the favor by supporting all of you.
A few days ago, I decided to tell my wife about my recovery. The subject of porn had not come up in conversation since the last incident more than a year ago, when I had accidentally left a browser window with a softcore image open on an Ipad. My 6-year old daughter, who thankfully remembers nothing of the experience, stumbled on the image by chance, which in turn led to a confrontation with my wife and ended with my feeling ashamed of what a thoughtless and shitty person I was for letting my addiction get so out of hand. Well, you can probably guess what happened next. I tried to stop but couldn't. Promises to myself to stop were broken and then made and broken again, and it continued like that for several months until I finally found the salvation I was looking for on YBOP.
Telling my wife about "my problem" was not easy. There are no scripts to follow. No hard and fast rules. I basically had to admit that I was not able to stop on my own. That I needed help. That I had turned to a community of people struggling with the same problem for answers. I told her that it had nothing to do with her. That it hadn't diminished the love I feel for her or our daughter. That I was tired of sneaking around and didn't want to live with any more secrets.
Things seem more or less normal between us now, but still, I know this can't be easy for her. I know she deserves better, and that is what I'm shooting for.
Anyway, thanks for hearing me out. I'm truly grateful to be here. Be well, everyone!
Some of you may know me from YBR. I was there for a short time, just long enough to build some momentum. I hope to keep that momentum going here with your support and also hope that I can return the favor by supporting all of you.
A few days ago, I decided to tell my wife about my recovery. The subject of porn had not come up in conversation since the last incident more than a year ago, when I had accidentally left a browser window with a softcore image open on an Ipad. My 6-year old daughter, who thankfully remembers nothing of the experience, stumbled on the image by chance, which in turn led to a confrontation with my wife and ended with my feeling ashamed of what a thoughtless and shitty person I was for letting my addiction get so out of hand. Well, you can probably guess what happened next. I tried to stop but couldn't. Promises to myself to stop were broken and then made and broken again, and it continued like that for several months until I finally found the salvation I was looking for on YBOP.
Telling my wife about "my problem" was not easy. There are no scripts to follow. No hard and fast rules. I basically had to admit that I was not able to stop on my own. That I needed help. That I had turned to a community of people struggling with the same problem for answers. I told her that it had nothing to do with her. That it hadn't diminished the love I feel for her or our daughter. That I was tired of sneaking around and didn't want to live with any more secrets.
Things seem more or less normal between us now, but still, I know this can't be easy for her. I know she deserves better, and that is what I'm shooting for.
Anyway, thanks for hearing me out. I'm truly grateful to be here. Be well, everyone!