aquarius25
Respected Member
Things are going well. The hubby is communicating a lot and doing everything he can to stay on track. I feel like I really couldn?t ask for more than that, after all it is his best. I am excited for his enthusiasm but i am also apprehensive to get too excited about his efforts. In the past he would do really well for about 2 weeks and then slowly he would start slacking on his commitments and gets comfortable. He did really well for a while, years in fact but he also let some of his Commitments go and stopped continuing to grow and improve. It was like he just stopped looking at porn but the underlying attitudes came creeping back and then surprise surprise eventually with those attitudes the porn came back too. I want to be excited for him but I also want to guard my heart because I am just not sure I can handle another blow of disappointment. Another concern I have is that his usual behavior is to really fixate on one thing and try to fix it by thinking about it all the time, at the expense of everything else. He has been concerned about his PIED as that was the thing that tipped my off to his relapse in the first place. His erections have returned pretty quickly ( I suspect that he had more performance anxiety than actual PIED). So as soon as They returned he is wanting to focus all his attention on our sex life. I am concerned, while I do enjoy finally having sex I worry that he is just trying to recreate porn in our bedroom. I would like to see him put more effort into being present in his everyday life and working on his root causes instead of putting all f his thought process and attention into being better int he bedroom. This to me is a red flag. While I don?t want to tell him how to do his recovery, I have my own emotions to work though, but I am concerned. We will just have to see how it goes.