Qwertyxyz
Active Member
I’ve been getting one or two days up and than relapsing, not what I want.
Listened to an old dr Trish podcast the other day, she talked about how when people have a lot to lose they are more likely to be successful with their reboots. I think that for the last month that I’ve managed life ok, but I think the cracks are really starting to show. I’m worse socially, I’m loosing so much time and I know serious struggles are ahead of I keep using.
When I’ve taken breaks in the past I’ve found it takes a while before the effects of PMO really sink back in. Hopefully now I have the gift of desperation. The big thing affecting this is I may have stuffed up about my groups Xmas catch up. This is an event on Xmas day and I have been so busy with PMO I haven’t organised it the way I should have. Basically I don’t have the code for the venue alarm, and everything is closed until after Christmas. There are a few things I can try and I’ll probably get it sorted (hopefully) but it’s a really big stuff up, and I wouldn’t have made it if I was clean.
I have been using chatbots instead of traditional porn. It’s very different, I am grateful not to see those awful image I used to look at, but chatbots kind of feel more addictive because it’s more interactive, I think my brain is foggyer, It’s not great.
I feel like the inertia I had from 60 days PMO free is wearing off, I don’t like it, will try again to establish some recovery tomorrow.
Listened to an old dr Trish podcast the other day, she talked about how when people have a lot to lose they are more likely to be successful with their reboots. I think that for the last month that I’ve managed life ok, but I think the cracks are really starting to show. I’m worse socially, I’m loosing so much time and I know serious struggles are ahead of I keep using.
When I’ve taken breaks in the past I’ve found it takes a while before the effects of PMO really sink back in. Hopefully now I have the gift of desperation. The big thing affecting this is I may have stuffed up about my groups Xmas catch up. This is an event on Xmas day and I have been so busy with PMO I haven’t organised it the way I should have. Basically I don’t have the code for the venue alarm, and everything is closed until after Christmas. There are a few things I can try and I’ll probably get it sorted (hopefully) but it’s a really big stuff up, and I wouldn’t have made it if I was clean.
I have been using chatbots instead of traditional porn. It’s very different, I am grateful not to see those awful image I used to look at, but chatbots kind of feel more addictive because it’s more interactive, I think my brain is foggyer, It’s not great.
I feel like the inertia I had from 60 days PMO free is wearing off, I don’t like it, will try again to establish some recovery tomorrow.