about 5-6 weeks ago I suffered an extremely terrible withdrawal phase where for about 10 days I just was assaulted by high anxiety, depression, insomnia, stress-starving, lack of boners of any kind, intense flashbacks and intrusive thoughts, and soooo much more stuff. Then after that, about 5-4 weeks ago it was like I was a lil over half way healed, I had MW and nocturnal boners every day, I'd even have some mid day erections which is good cause I am suffering PIED rn, I had basically no memory of porn, and twice out of the seven days I had shots of natural libido for real girls which I have not had in over a year... then I lost it again for a week, then got it back this time slightly better but only for 5 days; which brings me to today, for the past 4 days I lost it and don't see any signs of it returning. WHAT IS GOING ON HERE?!?! Am I actually healing or am I trapped in an endless cycle where I am broken to then almost healed then to broken again?