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    stepbystep's journal

    It's been a while since I posted. I'll be making this post very short as I have limited time right now. July hasn't been a great month for me. I've slipped up a few times to PMO. I'm glad the slips have been short (not engaging in porn for long periods of time), and I gotten right back to...
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    stepbystep's journal

    Thanks Phineas for the support as always. I'm going through a real tough week, and hope I can bounce back from my struggles.
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    stepbystep's journal

    Well, my stretch didn't last too long after my 6 month free post. I didn't break my inner circle as I had done in the past, but I did search for porn, avoided looking at it, and searched again. And, I did this for an hour. I stopped, realized my stupidity, and called my sponsor / accountability...
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    stepbystep's journal

    This week I passed a big milestone: six months free of porn! What has changed? I spend much more time on healthy activities and recreation. These days most of my weekday evenings and weekends are filled with activities I enjoy. That’s things like spending time with family, friends, exercising...
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    stepbystep's journal

    Thank you Phineas and EW for the encouragement. I'll keep this post short. Today was a much better day. I focused on recreation and rejuvenation and those were exactly what I needed. I felt freedom from porn, enjoyed the day, and was productive generally. I'm hoping for the same for the rest...
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    stepbystep's journal

    I've had lots of ups and downs in the last few weeks. Some days were good and others weren't. Today was one of those not so great days, where I've been middle circling so much that I searched for porn. I stopped though before viewing and reached out to my sponsor / accountability partner for a...
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    Escape Velocity - Orbiters Journal

    This is awesome! Keep up the great work!
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    stepbystep's journal

    Coming back to report that I struggled today as well and spent a lot of time on social media (instagram and tiktok), resulting in watching triggering stuff. I'm not proud of it but I did stop myself and did not watch porn. My mind was in a blur, I was very vulnerable and considered seriously...
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    stepbystep's journal

    Thanks Phineas for the encouragement! I'm here to post that I've been struggling in the last few days. It's been really tough. Yesterday, I fantasized in the middle of the night and stopped just short of MO (thank goodness!). And, this morning, I wasted quite a bit of time on instagram and...
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    stepbystep's journal

    Thanks ShadeTrenicin for dropping by! I'm going to talk about one negative and one positive in the last few weeks. First the negative. I've been triggered due to social media, especially instagram and tiktok. I have been middle circling a few times a week by looking for triggering stuff to...
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    stepbystep's journal

    It's been a while since I last posted, but things have been well overall. This week I'm feeling intense triggers and urges, which gave me reminder that maybe it's time for another post in rebootnation. I am very grateful that I've stayed away from PMO for about 4 months now. I haven't been very...
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    stepbystep's journal

    I've been more vulnerable than usual and had fantasies pop up often in the past week, both during the day and while going to sleep at night. I can't pin point why this was. It is possible that I've been more tired because of work and family life. I do want to report that engaged in middle...
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    stepbystep's journal

    This post is about respecting my limits and avoid putting myself in triggering situations that takes me straight back to porn. Two limits I respect are: no fantasy at night while sleeping and no short videos on social media. The first one, fantasy, makes it more likely that I will MO during...
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    stepbystep's journal

    Thanks Phineas and joyfulhealingmetta98! Today I'm 102 days free from porn and 65 days MO free. I'm grateful that things are so much better for me than before. I still do get urges, but they happen about once a week or two and go away quickly. The key for me is to remain vigilant and not let my...
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    Orbiters Journal of Recovery

    Orbiter, it's so good to hear from you even though you've been struggling. I can relate with you because this is exactly how I've felt for so many years. I understand. This is the exact conclusion I came to sometime last year. I decided that instead of simply posting my day count regularly, I...
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