Well something good happened and then a big negative bringing myself and partner closer. I have a friend visiting from the UK and he has been very helpful to talk to. After talking with him I feel so much carmer which is huge relief and my wife has noticed as well, still having no urges or...
Well today I actually got to talk and have dialect with my wife but after some hours we began to get more and more frustrated which ended in a huge arguement, she decided to leave to her parents leaving me alone at home.
I finally got my ticket to the UK with some nervousness but hey it is...
So today has been a bit of a emotional day for me, for reasons unknown I had a horrible breakdown of guilt, sadness and memories. I had a therapy session and it was very deep. I am still processing it myself but I will be writing more about it very soon.
So still having a lot of Ups and downs with my wife which is understandable although I feel I am always being judged or critised.
Anyway, still not organised my trip to UK since I have been helping my wife's family with appointments but hopefully in the next few day I will be booked and ready...
Thank you so much @Phineas 808
I am going to work on a lot of things while I am in the UK. Hopefully come back a much better person since the last few years I feel like I have lost my identity as a person.
So still been extremely active and in control of all temptations. Been feeling a lot better in myself along the way which make me feel so much better in myself. My wife is bearing with me a little more and we have been talking more expecially about some worries or issues that she has. I still...
So today started well, been working on projects so no time for any of this addiction shit.
The problem lately is that I have been getting extremely lost and emotional about family, this is why I am thinking of travelling to visit them and work on some of my issues that I have been having...
Been doing well and keeping active even when I have urges or negative thoughts. I just want to feel good in myself and see the people around me realising that I am doing much better within myself and not hurting anyone that I love the most.
I used to keep a lot to myself and tried to deal with so many other peoples problems that I forgot about my own well being, now I am struggling each day to better myself after falling victim to this fucked up shit. I have damaged my marriage and I am at a lower level, I am trying to rebuild...