Recent content by persistence_is_king

I've been binging the past couple days (this weekend). I made it all day yesterday, so today's day 2. It's crazy how this stuff pulls. The battle is a lot more intense since I am actively trying to quit. More shame, guilt, etc. I'm going to keep persisting.

Back to square one - it's now day 1 I isolated last night and the temptation came on me like a flood. My brain justifies it so easily when its at night, almost as if I cannot reason with myself--i just obey the urge. I slept like crap after I PMO'd...which is yet another reason to stay away...

Day 7 - a little milestone I am starting to feel some urges and my mind wants to dwell on lustful thoughts. Yesterday was successful--I got a 3 mile run in, mowed grass, and got stuff done around the house. I also had a martial arts class last evening and am noticing that I'm more motivated and...

Quick question for anyone reading, has quitting porn helped with your anxiety? Was it a cause of your anxiety? For whatever reason these past few days have not been as difficult as I imagined. I've been here before. I've tried quitting porn at various times for over many years ( shoot--I...

Today is day 5 and I'm feeling well. My body is much more calm and somehow I feel as if I'm sleeping better. Maybe because Im not guilt and shame ridden? I still have the resolve inside of myself to get this worthless habit out of my life. I'm starting to feel the slight nudges from my body to...

Hey Escapeandnevercomeback, I know your misery. I've previously had issues with alcohol and it's not a hopeless situation. It's tough breaking a bundle of sticks all at one time. You may try focusing on breaking one habit at a time. This is what I did. I am nearly 5 years sober and nicotine free...

Thanks for your input DavS. Im gonna read this book immediately.

Day 3 complete, on to day 4. The urges have not been very strong. Yesterday was my day off and I made myself a plan to stay busy all day with various activities. Like most people boredom is a huge pitfall for me. This means I need to plan EVERY day that I have off. Make sure my wife is present...

Phineas 808---Thanks for your input. I haven't had PIED for years (only back when I was constantly using hardcore porn all the time with little to no real interaction). So maybe I will continue having sex with the wife. My only predicament is I always revert to using porn if "shes not in the...

Day 2 over--on to day 3 Somehow my body knows that I'm serious this time. I say that because I can feel the pull more than normal, like my mind is giving me a fit. I also started listening to the Universal Man series on quitting porn and he suggests a hard reset, which Im still debating If I...

Your beginning story really resonated with me. I remember years back about to sleep with a drop dead gorgeous girl I was dating...and I couldn't get it up to save my life. Talk about absolutely humiliating. Thanks for sharing, good luck on your journey.

This isn't really the beginning of my recovery journey. I'm 30 years old and my battle against porn began around the age of 18. My life was really jacked up back then and it was clear to see that porn causes a variety of negative issues on-top of all the other addictions I had going on. Today...