Recent content by Dungalef

Day 0 Here we go again, starting over. Lots going on in my brain right now as I'm processing. I'm feeling ok, not feeling too beaten down. Ready to get up, dust myself off, learn some lessons, and keep going. So, debrief. Two ways I could process what happened. On the one hand, I could figure...

Slipped a bit, catching myself and coming back. Followed an urge onto Reddit, browsed stuff for a while...probably a relapse, but I'm not stressing about what to call it. Just focusing on pulling back as soon and as hard as I can.

Day 5 Evening at home alone today. Just checking in to remind myself to be mindful, and to not just let my thoughts and urges take over. :)

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Day 0 Had a relapse on Day 11 or so, then another one just now. The first one was a weird one, I had a bunch of time alone and ended up in this weird mental place that I'm still not fully sure about. I had been reading an interesting book quite intensively the day or so previously, and I think...

Day 8

Day 5 Been feeling regular urges, but standing strong. Found some inner strength somewhere, I think part of it is relearning inner awareness during the urges, which lets me talk back to myself through the urges, to actually work through them instead of just being carried along by them. I’ve...

Day 2 Thanks for this response, Blondie! Still musing on how to integrate these ideas. :) I’ve definitely been already focusing on some hobbies lately, like doing some self-paced online courses in interest areas, studying languages, memorizing poems…all stuff that’s really good for me, it’s...

Day 0 Here I am again. Feeling discouraged, like I can't seem to make it past a couple of days. What's up with me right now? Can't seem to get my head in the game. I hate this addiction, except when I don't. Heh, and therein lies the problem. I can't maintain my disdain for it through the...

Day 2

Back to day 0 unfortunately. Had some time alone at home and of course I decided to veg online, and when it wasn't interesting enough I eventually ended up surfing porn on Reddit. 🙄 Feels like I've made that mistake so many times. Nothing to do but get up at get going again though!

Day 4 Been noticing myself wasting more time lately, not sure if that's because I'm looking for dopamine? Staying away from porn though, so it's ok for now. Just wanting to be aware.

Day 3

Day 2 and going strong. It's a day 2 that feels like a lot more... Feeling like I've come so far even though it's just been two days lol. This thing doesn't always go linearly.