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Struggled with porn alternatives today. Alternatives is hardly a fair word since it's all porn. I have so many goals that feel put on hold until I beat this.

I haven’t checked in for awhile; this battle is still ongoing. I’m doing better lately. I installed covenant eyes on my phone and it’s been helping quite a bit. November was my best month in two years, with just a few relapses total. I really struggle with the sort-of-porn temptations, that are...

Day 9 of 30 I’m super hyped to be a streak this long; I think it’s one of the longest I’ve been in in a year. I’m really motivated to keep it up and quit. My job is still a tough environment for me, but I’ve been staying strong and I’m hoping I get a new job soon. I’m waiting to hear back after...

I watched porn 3 times this week. I’m super disappointed but I learned not to bring my personal laptop to work. I have a closet office all by myself and it’s not a great situation for me. I learned for next week and I talked to my wife and therapist about it

Day 6 of 30 Damn, as if things couldn’t get any crazier—I’m having a kid lol. I’m actually really excited. My wife and I were very surprised, and we didn’t want kids for like, many more years, but I think it’ll be good. Another perk, among many, is that my motivation to stop watching porn is...

Day 3 of 30 I’m really starting to get somewhere with nailing down porn as an obstacle to my goals in life. It’s incredibly difficult to overcome still, but developing a strong hatred for porn as something that saps the life and energy out of me to accomplish my goals is incredibly motivating.

Day 1 of 30 I had a good day today not watching or even getting close to looking at anything. I’ve been having a sort of spiritual reckoning lately with myself, and I’m realizing just how draining porn is on me. I’ve always known that, but I’m really trying to associate porn with death, because...

I watched porn today again too. My wife is taking a job across the country and it’s been causing a lot of stress in our relationship while we get ready to move. I haven’t found a new job yet and she’s been really rude and aggressive about the planning of it all. It’s not an excuse, I’m just...

It’s called CravingToQuit. I’ve only used it for a couple weeks but I think it’d be worth checking out. I got it from a Ted talk that a guy did on addiction

I’m really frustrated to say I just relapsed. I couldn’t handle being alone in my apartment with my laptop. I started, stopped for a good two hours and thought I had gotten over the impulse, and then went back. I even journaled before I went back and was confident I wasn’t going to. Idk what’s...

Day 3 of 30 Its still super early into this reboot, but I feel very confident and proud of myself. My wife is out of town and I haven’t watched porn, which is normally when I would binge really bad. I’m trying to be mindful constantly throughout the day, monitoring my emotions and body. I’m...

Day 1 of 30, I think I just haven’t taken my addiction serious enough. I would have said I did, but I was just hoping it would go away. I need to actively choose every morning that today will be a clean day. I hate what porn does to my mentality in life.

Trying to reboot again. Today is 0 of 30. I’ve been going through a lot of relationship turmoil with my wife lately, but we started going to counseling and I’m feeling more hopeful. I’ve also, out of nowhere, set my sights on joining the military. I never expected that for myself, but I have...

Hey everyone, still been having a fairly rough time overall but the last two days I haven’t watched anything and I feel like I found a new source of energy and motivation to quit. My marriage is still pretty rough right now but my personal goals are going well. For some reason I’ve had a really...

Posting before the weekend, which will be good. I had a really bad week (didn’t post here and watched pron almost every day). My wife and I’s relationship is failing really terribly, and I’m lost as to what to do. We got married really young and as awesome as that is, it comes with a lot of...