Recent content by Jochen999

Day 1 I relapsed (MO). I'm still on the journey. Porn is currently not a problem because of the blockers, but the M habits are strong and difficult to prevent. The habit is deeply rooted in my brain. That's currently the biggest challenge + the mobile phone and the sexual stimuli in the area...

Day 34 The desire is still there, but nowhere near as strong. All in all, I'm doing well.

Day 25 I feel good at the moment. Libido is relatively high and I'm struggling with M right now when I'm in bed with my phone. So from now on I won't take the mobile phone to bed with me.

Day 20 In the last few days I had a few days off and was often alone, which in turn increased the craving. I realised that I have to structure my everyday life well so that I don't get any stupid ideas. The triggers are still there and I have to stay focused. Without the blockers, I would...

Day 9 The craving decreases again. Things are better again. I'm working on myself and looking positively to the future.

Day 4 I have relapsed on day 37. I have never come this far. My blocker didn't work and I had a weak moment. But now I am back on track. I have noticed that it is generally easier for me to get back on track. I'm not starting from zero. Here's to a new one!

Day 34 I am still doing well. The moments when I am in a bad mood or cannot control my emotions have decreased significantly. I feel better in my skin every day and speak up more and stand up for myself, which I had problems with before.

30 Days I am proud of myself for making it this far. I am very happy and grateful that I signed up here and that I am sharing the journey with people who are pursuing the same goal. I think that this component was missing in my previous attempts to be abstinent. Thank you to supporters. I'm...

DAY 28 It's going really well. I just went to the gym and was able to lift a lot of weight, even though I haven't exercised for a long time. Other than that, my well-being is more stable and I feel that people respond better to me.

DAY 26 yeah man. I've almost made it through the 30 days. I was on a trip the last few days and it went really well. I only had 2 moments where I thought about PMO and they were related to the TV in the hotel room. But I could resist.

Day 19 Hey, I'm on day 19 right now. It's going pretty well so far. I had trouble sleeping yesterday because my libido is so high. I have noticed that my voice has deepened and negative thoughts have decreased. I was still looking for ways to satisfy my cravings, but I was able to resist. I...

Day 16 The day went okay. I was shopping online for clothes and looked at the bikini models. I now take it with humour and smile at how my addicted brain looks for every opportunity to get its dose. I masturbated to it, but after 2 minutes I had a conscious moment and thought to myself, "I'm no...

Sounds good. I have also found that meditating is very helpful. Keep it up!

Day 15 I am currently on day 15 and it is going really well so far. I often have fantasies about women I know and also from scenes I know. I have found that I can handle them better.

Thanks for the advice! I have to stay away from sexual stimuli as much as possible. I have already looked for erotic film scenes on Netflix. In the meantime, I'm becoming aware of my behaviour relatively quickly and it's easier for me to stop it.