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    Open and honest

    It's already a little tougher today. My intention is strong though. I have quite a lot of hard exercise planned. And I'd like to meditate. I wish you all well. On we go.
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    I know I can do it. I can feel myself getting closer to success.

    I'm a recovering alcoholic and 12 step is very controversial. That doesn't mean I think it isn't right for you. And it doesn't mean it doesn't work for lots of people. I hope you work something out.
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    Open and honest

    I've done a full day. That's good enough for now. It may well be that forums are not a useful tool for me. I emailed the Samaritans on Tuesday and have been in correspondence with someone there since then. It's been very useful for me. I'm grateful for it. Also grateful for exercise...
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    One hour at a time.

    One hour at a time.
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    One day at a time.

    One day at a time.
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    Open and honest

    So that was a bad day... I know very directly what the triggers were. I'm very deep in denial about this thing. That's a very big issue. I'll see how I feel about all this tomorrow.
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    Open and honest

    Thank you GBS. I'll take a look today. I did a day. Today I'll do another day. That's the plan. I'm fairly unbothered by sexual urges thus far, it's boredom and unhappiness that undo me. I'm exercising a lot still. That helps. I have work today. On we go.
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    quit for good

    Well done Joe!
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    Open and honest

    Thank you TH, and Captain Haddock! I do appreciate that people have shown support. It is why I came here. I haven't read YBOP and perhaps I will. I have read Noah Church's book, which is good and covers a lot of the science. I think he gives it away free now. I also watch his YouTube channel...
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    Doing things differently this time

    Well done!
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    Another story - probably the same as everyone else

    You're doing so well!
  12. O

    Open and honest

    One day at a time for a while I think.
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    Open and honest

    And, I'm afraid I relapsed. Not in a terribly bingey way for me. And, to be frank, 3 days clean (when I have the opportunity) is the best that it's been for me for a long time. I really was a porn user and, honestly, not much more. Once my partner went away - as she does often - I would...
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    Open and honest

    Thank you Blondie. Along with the huge amount of time I waste on porn I want to note the amount of time I've been trying to stop using it. At least 7 years in a way that was serious enough to involve signing up for a quitting site. One day at a time. That's fine for now. It's very early days.
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    Open and honest

    I made it through today. Some tough moments. In fact, this morning I was sure I was going to relapse. I got caught in a thought loop and it felt inevitable. I'm pleased to have escaped it. My cousin was due to visit and had I not had that appointment... After that I spent a lot of the day...
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    Open and honest

    That's kind GBS. Nice to meet another UKist here. :)
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    Open and honest

    I've done a day! In fact, if I look at my SoberTime timer I'm currently on 1 day, 21 hours and 7 minutes. That's as well as I've done on my own for a while. I used a thought from when I gave up smoking a lot. I did that with a lot of support from a man called Joel Spitzer. He has a smoking...
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    I'll make it through today now.

    I'll make it through today now.
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    Open and honest

    This is my first day then. I have been starting my days with PMO X 3 in bed and it's a very embedded habit. I'm theming today on Letting the Light in. I often hide in the darkness, but today I'm going to make sure I draw back all the curtains. It amazes me how quickly and completely I fall...
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    Open and honest

    Thank you jonazo, that's very kind and it's nice to meet you. I don't even recall hearing of ADHD until I was well into adulthood. What I heard then tended to present it as exotic, questionable, controversial thing. I think it's different here now and it (and neurodiverse descriptors...
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