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Today is 100 days. The longest I’ve ever went! The past 20 days have been a bit harder than the first 80. I am not sure why but I find myself mourning my addiction. However, acting out is not an option. I just have to deal with the uncomfortable feelings and keep open communication with my...

81 days. Change is possible.

Today marks 65 days since I last acted out. Cravings come but are dismissed. What has helped was communication, keeping busy and going to SPAA meetings every week. Make that change in your life. I am already better than I was 65 days ago.

Day 48 Today no cravings. Just goes to show that these urges are ephemeral. I went to my SPAA meeting and that helped dissolve the cravings. Talking to my sponsor helped too. When my girlfriend came home we talked about it too. I just wanted to update my journal and say the craving is non...

Day 47 I had a dream I acted out last night. Today I feel urges and question how can I get through this? I am also asking myself "Do you really want to quit this? You love it." That isn't really what I want but I am feeling some type of way. I miss what's bad for me. My life is better...

46 Days! I recommend SPAA to anyone struggling. It has made the difference. This has been the easiest attempt yet.

Doing good, staying strong. Going to meetings, 38 days now! Taking it day by day.

37 days! This might be the longest I went without edging and indulging. My first break of almost 3 months I was on IG looking at peoples accounts and edging. This time I am completely cold turkey. The meetings have helped tremendously and I recommend anyone struggling go to SPAA.

Thank you for the support!

Today marks a month since I last acted out. I feel urges but I know acting out isn't an option. Tonight I will speak with my partner about these urges. Not strong like they used to be. The thoughts haven't accompanied these urges, its mainly just a feeling. Getting through this.

30 days today. I have a few dreams where I act out but wake up relieved knowing it was only a dream. Today I feel slight urges and I tell myself “I can make it through today”. I also realize that when I was younger every time I’d tell a girl I like her she would embarrass and humiliate me. I...

26 days

Today I am good. Feeling strong and motivated. It’s been 3 weeks, coming on a month. My sobriety is so important I am even dreaming about maintaining it. I have so much to lose and remind myself the feeling I felt when my partner caught me. we are working things out, she hasn’t officially taken...

So far so good. I had a dream last night I edged and went on twitter. That was my old habit. I was so relieved to find out it was only a dream. Taking one day at a time. 18 days!

Today I am 14 days porn and edge free. It has been easy to get to this point but now is where the journey begins. I would always begin to feel cravings at this point. I have the accountability software and I’m going to SPAA meetings. I am prepared for the journey ahead.

Working things out with my partner. There is a lot of trust I need to rebuild and it will take time. The man I was when we first met was a poor man. A man addicted to porn and a man who flirted with friends. She had revealed o me all the hurt I caused in that first year. In my head I wasn't...

Thank you for your kind words of encouragement

For some reason my last post isn't here anymore. But my girlfriend left me. She seems to resent me. I put her through hell. I ruined my life because I couldn't kick this nasty habit. I don't blame her for wanting to leave me. She keeps mentioning all my flaws and how I don't excite her and that...

I would see her and let her know your situation. There are many things you can do without using your penis. In my experience good head goes a long way. Penetration is not everything. I would take this opportunity to be creative. if I were you I would perform oral, and who knows you might get...

Hi, my partner and I have had some issues with my porn use. I lied and told her I hadn’t watched it all year and she caught me in the act. we were wondering if there was a software we could download that would track my search history. It was my idea and I want to rebuild trust.