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Thanks for reaching out. I struggled today. Did not get enough sleep. Insane sometimes how I go on auto-pilot and fall into this.

Day 1 again. : ( Working from home on a work computer has been a challenge. Don't know what to do. It's insane to think no one knows. When I am in the bubble--my addict does not care--just wants that escape. Am open to ideas as to how others deal with this struggle.

Day 21 pmo free👍grateful for that. no anxiety work related triggers. Was briefly distracted by a woman wearing nice summer attire. soothed anxiety by listening to calm music

Day 16 pmo free: ) No porn today - got some work done but not as much as I’d hoped. Ran into a few hiccups, vented with my brother a little and saw that this was doable but that I just needed to make peace with and accept what I could not change. Grateful for my sons, my wife, our home, my job...

Day 13 pmo but slippery today. Entry similar to yesterday

Day 12 pmo. : ) Triggers - anxiety/procrastination, How did I soothe my anxiety - calm music, went for a run, short list of tasks to focus on Gratitude- for my recovery, the recovery community, my sons, my wife, my family, home, my job, my boss, our home, my health care and so much more

I finished the memo that I was working on but I did procrastinate and felt slippery a few times trying to escape that feeling in my body. Going for a run helped.

Day 9 pmo free so far. Feeling a little anxious about work. Will check in later.

So grateful for this community’s support. Day 8 pmo free: ) No I did not look at porn today. No slipperiness, yay : ) One or two brief triggers when I was on my run, seeing women in summery, running outfits, Soothe my anxiety- did my prayers, meditation, ran over lunch, listened to calm music...

Made it through safe. At my son’s soccer game now. Grateful to I’ve Swornoff’s support and this community. : )

Another work day. My wife is gone. Trying to work on a task--will go for a run--it usually helps clear my head and get rid of this anxious energy. OK so far, but I did feel slippery before. I texted my sponsor, walked away from the computer, did some slow, deep breaths to calm my body and...

Hang in there. This disease sucks. Maybe try to re-frame how you might (or I do, sometimes, at least) think about this addiction -- as a battle that I have to give up something that has ostensibly and temporarily provided me with an escape and pleasure hit of dopamine. Instead, I have found it...

Almost finished a draft of the task I was working on. Thanks for your support. Going offline now : )

Trying to finish one more task but am feeling slippery--will take break from computer---

Still doing ok--my wife should be home soon--but I still need to make it through the rest of the afternoon--will check in again later

Still doing ok so far. I will check in again around noon--before I go for a run.

Thanks for your sharing your wise words of experience and compassion. Today is day 6 pmo free. I am at a potentially vulnerable spot. I did not get enough sleep last night--and I know it can be easy to go into default mode, mindless web surfing until I eventually look at porn again. Also, my...

Day 5 pmo free so far--another Monday--I need to calm my body--do a few deep, slow breaths, listen to some calm music--and just focus on one task at a time.

Hang in there. This disease sucks. Maybe try to re-frame how you might (or I do, sometimes, at least) think about this addiction -- as a battle that I have to give up something that has ostensibly and temporarily provided me with an escape and pleasure hit of dopamine. Instead, I have found it...