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Day 123. 4 months have passed. My sexuality slowly returns back.

Thanks, Carl

Day 113. Still on the flatline. My woods have became morning but still unregular. Carl in the other thread had mentioned "dopamine nation" book which I read. This book makes me rethink my relapse and my general dependency condition. It is likely that I have substituted my porn addiction with...

Day 106. Yesterday was the day that I felt NORMAL for the entire day since I started my abstination. I had slept well couple of nights.

Hi hooked, I can also advise to avoid reading news. These days even in the neutral resources they incorporate some porn related news, like some school teacher quit for porn and made a lot of money, or some new sexy outfit trend by selebrities and other sh*t like this. That worked for me as a...

Day 97. I Had sex on day 94, not because I wanted, more like an obligation, and was waiting for some consequences. And they came, I woke up in the middle of night full of anxiety and racing thoughts in my head, but them was not enough for a panic attack. That anxiety lasted for a day. Some...

Day 90. Hi again day 90. An important check point, as they say old neuron paths degrade by that day. I definately feel better, no panic attacks any more. Focus and sleep are still rubbish and I still experience a flatline, I don't want to have sex at all. I know that if I'd fantasize I'd make...

Day 78. It took 3 complete days for my poor brain to recover from sex. Again, I had anxiety and fear during this period. I've tried to link it to dropped dopamine level. There are many research articles in the internet on the dependency of anxiety and fear from dopamine. And mine was definitely...

do not be scared. It seems that everyone can react different. Even myself, I had nearly no anxiety during my first attempt but a lot of urges for watching P. And now I have no urges but alot of anxiety.

Day 72 today. Had a healthy sex with my wife yesterday, second time during this period. Two hours after that I began to feel anxious. Today anxiety became worse, very close to panic attack.

It is day 68 today. I'm getting better, day 66 was no anxiety at all, the other days it is somewhere on a perifery of my mood, but does not effect me. My problem now is my sleep. I usually sleep 1-3 hrs then wake up and doze, no full rest. My tinnitis loudness also increased. Couple of nights I...

The biggest problem with relapsing after a long period of time, for me, is that after 1.5Y I began to forget what I have passed through and what I achieved. Big big improvements were achieved. As I said a had remote location work, 12 hrs shifts, from 7am to 7 pm. Before no PMO I could barely...

Thanks for support, friends. How it was... I was locked in a room for two weeks, actually. At that time I worked at remote site and because of all that COVID insainity we were kept in a camp for two weeks before they allowed us to start the work. Unfortunately there was mobile internet with...