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I crashed and burned on day 10, all porn, all day, it was a mess. I numbed it with a trip out of town and a lot of drinking. It started when I viewed my own only f*ns video, which I had saved on my phone. It was idiotic. I then ended up texting a friend I met in a sex addicts group and...

Day 8. I'm very exhausted today as I got very little sleep last night. I spent most of the day vegging out and watching the rain pummel my neighborhood during some desperately needed winter storms. Ordinarily I would've gone crazy looking at porn on a day like this. However, I'm so thankful...

I scheduled consultation with her after reading your texts and checking out her YouTube. Let’s see what happens. I’m pretty determined to stack the deck in my favor this year

did you watch her videos in any particular order? Daily? Or just whenever/at random?

Day 5 I'm overeating mozzarella sticks like a mad person, my anxiety is at a 10/10. I think part of it is that I've been watching too much of the speaker of the house drama on cable. news. Also, I wonder if this level of anxiety is actually normal for me, but that I haven't noticed in the past...

Day 4 Going to sleep now. Anxiety was at high as I was required to talk to some attorneys about a case I'm involved in. Not sure how I felt afterwards. Had a lot of variations in my job with imaging division meetings, final summary reports & other such "chandler bing" nonsense. Don't ask...

Day 2 Day 2 was yesterday but I fell asleep before typing a journal update. It's not a habit yet. I'm in the process of changing jobs, which I'm keeping a secret until I sign the contract. This is creating a ton of anxiety inside me, since I have been at my current job for nearly a decade...

Thank you for the support, I’m sure I’ll come back to this comment as the “motivation” wears off and things get “real”

Day 1 I'm in my early 40s, and have been living the most f*cked up kind of f*cked up life you could ever imagine. I started watching porn on VHS tapes in the 6th grade, where I would get aroused both by the men and the women. I started reading hardcover encyclopedias about sexual...