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I’m back again after another slip, and I need to stop myself before I can’t. I find posting here lets me reframe and start moving past it. Any slip feels bad and this is no different. Once again my hungover state got the better of me. But logging in I was surprised to see how long it had...

I fell again. I’m here immediately after finishing to try and put myself back together. I still don’t know what happened but I want to keep myself honest and own up straight away. I feel like shit now after feeling so positive. It has been a real blow to me and I just feel I need to vent...

Felt more urges the past couple of days. I managed to shrug them off by just reminding myself that ANY porn would take me back down the rabbit hole. That is not something I am willing to allow myself to do. The pangs are not so bad when I really stop and consider what my brain is doing. But they...

As an aside to my normal posts. I had a look recently over on another forum. I felt it might be helpful to have the perspective from a wider range of people. And that if I was struggling I could read through even more journals to help me through. Well. It seemed a sensible idea. Got to say...

Still going strong with very little difficulty. This has to undoubtedly be the best I’ve ever felt about a reboot. It may still be early days, but previously I’ve always felt like I was missing something and the pangs would eventually catch up to me. For whatever reason it feels like things are...

Just got to the end of the easy peasy method for the second time. It has been the most helpful book that I’ve ever used, and was almost enough for me to break the habit before. Unfortunately, last time I started using again. But that was a failing on my part, not this method. Having finished...

I’ve been through some ups and down the last two or three weeks trying to get back on track. Now I finally feel I’m back in a positive rhythm and have made about a week so far with little trouble. The game changer for me was going back and listening to the easy peasy method again. The last time...

Appreciate the support @Blondie . It’s a new day and another chance. Fortunately I’m pretty busy for the next few days which should give me a solid chance to break from the rut.

I’m finding myself spinning out. Today was another binge that ended with me feeling bad about myself. An unfulfilling act that gained me nothing and left me feeling worse. It’s hard to understand why I go back. I get the addiction of it all, but even so, it provides nothing good. For now I...

I’ve allowed myself a short time to mope about my slip up. Whichever way you look at it, it doesn’t feel good to break in such a substantial way. It can feel like you’re straight back to square one. But I worry that allowing myself to sit around dejected is asking for further trouble where this...

Making a quick post after my worst ever slip. Need to remind myself what I’m doing. Things were going well and for whatever reason I spiralled out the last few days. Yes it lasted days. Feeling pretty bad about it. And if I wasn’t here I’d probably still be going. Damn this thing can catch you...

It’s been a minute since I’ve posted here. I found that time away has been beneficial for me and helped keep my mind off porn altogether. That’s not to say I’ve had a perfectly easy go of it, but I’ve had one of my best runs during that time. I’m currently a few days without porn...

Hope you don’t mind my weighing in. I’ve been following your thread for a while and it’s clear your stuck in cycle perpetuated by your thinking patterns. “I try and I can’t quit, I’m useless.” “This is so hard, I hate myself.” “I fucked it again, I’m hopeless.” You’ve never broken free of it...

It’s amazing to see 50 days now! It always seems like such a long time, but when I think back to the start of this streak, it doesn’t seem so long ago. Massive inspiration as always. Amazing work!

An update following my last day 0. That reboot didn’t last long. Not even a day actually. It lead to the heaviest relapse I’d had in a very long time. The whole thing stretched over a couple of days where I could not seem to help myself, indulging every old craving and vice, spiralling madly...

Welcome back from a fellow relapser. I know all too well how bad it can get before you make the decision to come here. But it really is the first step to helping yourself. Everyone here will celebrate your successes and help pick you up when you need it, and with perseverance you can get past...

Well damn. Slipped up yesterday. Not in a big way but it puts me back to 0. Like before I want to focus on the positive. Each time seems to be a little easier and each relapse less severe. I’m setting a target for myself to reach a month this time. I think with the progress I’m making and with...

20 days and counting. My best run in a long time. I’m trying to ascribe as little time and thought to any of this as possible. Minimise it from my life. But it isn’t easy. Some days go by quickly, other days when I find myself with spare time can be really tough. I came across a tip recently...

It’s been over a week since my last post and all has been well. I’m feeling the need to quickly check in. Typically around now things have gotten tough. It has also been a historical falling point so I need to be extra vigilant. Usually the slip happens out of nowhere and what is a good run...

Just a quick check in to keep me on track. Smooth sailing so far. Still that incessant niggle that likes to tempt me. But it’s all good.