lilnavadaa
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He is in his early 40 and has been to prison for about 5 years when he was 15 to about 20 and again later but not as long. He joined a gang and did something stupid. Joining a gang itself is stupid. In his eyes lust is something good and not bad at all because of the way the world shows you sex.
Since he got out he has been having sex like he just found a city of treasure all for him. Then came today's internet porn and it changed everything and everyone thinks its nothing and harmless. I lived with my dad the past 5 years and has seen how porn has plagued him.
First his social skills were worsening not bad but could be better. So anyway that is what got him hooked on this one girl and didn't want to let her go. Throughout his relationship with her he had always watched porn not really a lot be he did. He was somewhat happy cuz he had a girl a place a nice relationship with his son while working and life for him seemed ok pretty ok.
His girl was starting to not want him more and more. Over the past five years they would break up when I was with them and make up when I wasn't there. Coincidence I guess.
First time they broke up we went to live with his mom my grandma and since he don't got a girlfriend to commit to now.. now he started to watch a LOT of porn.
He would stay up late nights watching porn and was becoming a very irratable person. He was more and more becoming a pervert.. it was shown mainly by his words. He would lust after every hot women on TV had so much porn history DVDs etc..
Now this last time they broke up for good and now was porns chance to completely take over him. He watched so much porn and was now a VERY angry and DEPRESSED. He was so depressed looking sometimes I would just start crying when I was around him seeing his sadass face. He would get so angry at things I hated being around him now. This is when also he really became a perv.
I tryed to tell him porn was destructive and absolutely no good and very addictive and foolishly chose to not believe any of what I said because I'm a kid and don't know about anything in life. So he lost his girl his place his relationship with his son and his job. Not because of porn but is laid off because of what he does is not in demand.
Now he's alone living with his brother very depressed and angry at the way his life turned out. Yes dad life is hard but you make it a million times harder when you have a porn addiction and just ignore it.
He strangled me because I was mad at him for not wanted to quit porn with me and help each other through it. I couldn't get out of bed for days because my neck was in so much pain.
Now I want to heal our relationship and I try but it is happening very extremely slowly. Instead of trying to directly want him to quit porn I will try and get him closer with God and if that happens God will make him wanna change his mind about porn because there are lots of bible verses telling us how terrible we will suffer if we allow lust into our lives. It will destroy us.
Until I die, I will try and get him to see what porn really is.. a drug. A drug that will destroy your life. A sin that will bring death to you. The ONLY sin that sins against your physical body.
This is war and the enemy is strong.
We must build and army and one day unleash a full on attack.
For now stay strong my brothers and sisters you are not alone in this.
Since he got out he has been having sex like he just found a city of treasure all for him. Then came today's internet porn and it changed everything and everyone thinks its nothing and harmless. I lived with my dad the past 5 years and has seen how porn has plagued him.
First his social skills were worsening not bad but could be better. So anyway that is what got him hooked on this one girl and didn't want to let her go. Throughout his relationship with her he had always watched porn not really a lot be he did. He was somewhat happy cuz he had a girl a place a nice relationship with his son while working and life for him seemed ok pretty ok.
His girl was starting to not want him more and more. Over the past five years they would break up when I was with them and make up when I wasn't there. Coincidence I guess.
First time they broke up we went to live with his mom my grandma and since he don't got a girlfriend to commit to now.. now he started to watch a LOT of porn.
He would stay up late nights watching porn and was becoming a very irratable person. He was more and more becoming a pervert.. it was shown mainly by his words. He would lust after every hot women on TV had so much porn history DVDs etc..
Now this last time they broke up for good and now was porns chance to completely take over him. He watched so much porn and was now a VERY angry and DEPRESSED. He was so depressed looking sometimes I would just start crying when I was around him seeing his sadass face. He would get so angry at things I hated being around him now. This is when also he really became a perv.
I tryed to tell him porn was destructive and absolutely no good and very addictive and foolishly chose to not believe any of what I said because I'm a kid and don't know about anything in life. So he lost his girl his place his relationship with his son and his job. Not because of porn but is laid off because of what he does is not in demand.
Now he's alone living with his brother very depressed and angry at the way his life turned out. Yes dad life is hard but you make it a million times harder when you have a porn addiction and just ignore it.
He strangled me because I was mad at him for not wanted to quit porn with me and help each other through it. I couldn't get out of bed for days because my neck was in so much pain.
Now I want to heal our relationship and I try but it is happening very extremely slowly. Instead of trying to directly want him to quit porn I will try and get him closer with God and if that happens God will make him wanna change his mind about porn because there are lots of bible verses telling us how terrible we will suffer if we allow lust into our lives. It will destroy us.
Until I die, I will try and get him to see what porn really is.. a drug. A drug that will destroy your life. A sin that will bring death to you. The ONLY sin that sins against your physical body.
This is war and the enemy is strong.
We must build and army and one day unleash a full on attack.
For now stay strong my brothers and sisters you are not alone in this.
