Hello all,
I found this site after relapsing yesterday after 2 weeks. I figure I need some help to rid this addiction I've had for over 30 years!
I am a 46 year old male, happily married with 2 children. I have been addicted to porn and masturbation since my mid teens when I discovered my dad's Playboy collection. When I went to college, I graduated to Penthouse, Hustler, and Swank type magazines. After college, with the advent of the internet, my addiction grew worse. I would spend hours looking at porn. I didn't lose my virginity until I was 23 and was disappointed that it didn't live up to the fantasy. I learned to adapt, and kept my fantasy sex life different than my real sex life. After 17 years of marriage, our sex life has tapered off quite a bit, maybe once a week, and it's just straight intercourse as my wife has never been a fan of oral sex. My job takes me out of town quite frequently, so it's very easy to get online in the hotel and just binge on porn. Over the last few years, the fantasies have been getting more outrageous and disgusting, things I would never do in real life, seemed to turn me on. I feel awful after getting off on it, wondering what is wrong with me! I've tried a few times to go cold turkey, but the longest I've been able to hold out is a few weeks before I fall back on old habits. Luckily, I haven't suffered from the ED that seems quite common. I can get an erection anywhere, anytime, lol! I have a very strong libido!
Anyway, I really want to rid myself of this addiction!!
Thanks for listening.
I found this site after relapsing yesterday after 2 weeks. I figure I need some help to rid this addiction I've had for over 30 years!
I am a 46 year old male, happily married with 2 children. I have been addicted to porn and masturbation since my mid teens when I discovered my dad's Playboy collection. When I went to college, I graduated to Penthouse, Hustler, and Swank type magazines. After college, with the advent of the internet, my addiction grew worse. I would spend hours looking at porn. I didn't lose my virginity until I was 23 and was disappointed that it didn't live up to the fantasy. I learned to adapt, and kept my fantasy sex life different than my real sex life. After 17 years of marriage, our sex life has tapered off quite a bit, maybe once a week, and it's just straight intercourse as my wife has never been a fan of oral sex. My job takes me out of town quite frequently, so it's very easy to get online in the hotel and just binge on porn. Over the last few years, the fantasies have been getting more outrageous and disgusting, things I would never do in real life, seemed to turn me on. I feel awful after getting off on it, wondering what is wrong with me! I've tried a few times to go cold turkey, but the longest I've been able to hold out is a few weeks before I fall back on old habits. Luckily, I haven't suffered from the ED that seems quite common. I can get an erection anywhere, anytime, lol! I have a very strong libido!
Anyway, I really want to rid myself of this addiction!!
Thanks for listening.
!!!!!!!! I do the same.