Fix Me Now.

[Kev123]

I'm still a bit shocked that I joined the Rebootnation forum and am writing this post.  But, I know I have a serious problem that needs fixing.  I'm wanting to share my story, progress, and hopefully receive some support & advice from the community. 

I'm a 22 year-old Bisexual male.  I've watched straight & gay porn since I was 14.  I never considered myself a porn addict by any measure.  I still don't, honestly.  I had sex for the first time right before turning 20.  I wasn't able to cum.  And I have never been able to cum from sex (vaginal/oral/anal).  I've always had to finish myself off.  Even then, I can't always ejaculate in the presence of another.  That has only happened a couple times (after literally an hour or more of REALLY trying).  While playing with others, my dick would remain hard throughout.  Lately, that hasn't been the case at all.  The last couple of times my dick hasn't been able to remain erect while receiving head.  Hasn't even been hard enough to be able to penetrate.  As some of you probably know, I was highly embarrassed. 

After some research online... I learned about the effects that pornography and the infamous 'Death Grip' can have.  I had NEVER before heard anything about porn causing ED.  This was a bit of an epiphany for me.  Since the age of about 16-17 I have gotten off to porn every SINGLE time I masturbated. I became so reliant upon it without seeing it as abnormal. Very rarely have I fantasized about REAL life people.  During sex, I often fantasized about porn stars/scenes rather than living in the moment.  I WILL overcome this problem.  I'm going to be focusing on nothing but self-improvement in all areas of my life.  I would love to have sex like a normal person SO badly. 

 

[Bibbity]

You can and you will!  Rebooting is the answer.  Make plan for fighting urges, start living your life and you will beat this one day, one hour at a time

 

[Kev123]

I've started the reboot!  I'm done with the porn.  Giving it up won't be a problem at all.  I've began to affiliate pornography in such a negative manner that watching it doesn't even sound appealing.  The biggest problem for me will be attempting to go long stretches of time without masturbating. 

 

[Kev123]

Some Progress... Over 20 days without viewing porn of any kind.  The changes are already becoming apparent.  I actually have morning wood at this point.  Also finding myself so much more aroused.  Finding 'regular' people more attractive.  The need to be with someone has increased (Rather than just being alone in front of a computer screen). I haven't been able to give up masturbation entirely.  But...  I've done it once a week. (Better than at least once daily, like I was for so long). The first time I attempted it without porn was disastrous.  I could barely get/stay hard.  Because I hadn't not masturbated to some form of pornography for YEARS.  Last time I MO'd, I actually was able to get hard somewhat easily.  I didn't sustain it completely, but it's SO much better than where I was at.  Slowly, but surely.  I can't wait until I'm fully functional. 

Any advice is gladly appreciated.