Survivor here.
Things are good. No porn slips and very little obsession. Been clean for eighteen days.
However, I need to be careful of what I refer to as 'teaser hunting.' Example: This morning, while viewing something quite innocuous I came across a UTube video of Debbie Harry singing 'Heart of Glass'. As much as I enjoyed the song I was in it more for Debbie Harry than I was for the music. So then I find myself checking out Debbie Harry on the internet. Seems like a little thing but, for me, it can be the match that lights the fuse that leads to the explosion. As I keep searching my viewing preferences become more and more explicit until it just doesn't make sense to look at anything other than porn. I know quite well how my brain works. Gotta nip it in the bud before it gets rolling because once it starts to go I can't find the brake pedal.
So... gonna sign off now and go do something constructive - like wash the dishes. At least it's positive action as opposed to sitting here for an hour killing time and ruining my sobriety.
Thanks for giving me a place to be accountable.
Things are good. No porn slips and very little obsession. Been clean for eighteen days.
However, I need to be careful of what I refer to as 'teaser hunting.' Example: This morning, while viewing something quite innocuous I came across a UTube video of Debbie Harry singing 'Heart of Glass'. As much as I enjoyed the song I was in it more for Debbie Harry than I was for the music. So then I find myself checking out Debbie Harry on the internet. Seems like a little thing but, for me, it can be the match that lights the fuse that leads to the explosion. As I keep searching my viewing preferences become more and more explicit until it just doesn't make sense to look at anything other than porn. I know quite well how my brain works. Gotta nip it in the bud before it gets rolling because once it starts to go I can't find the brake pedal.
So... gonna sign off now and go do something constructive - like wash the dishes. At least it's positive action as opposed to sitting here for an hour killing time and ruining my sobriety.
Thanks for giving me a place to be accountable.
