35 days clean but not a new man

[DonaNobisPacem]

Hello from a fellow struggler in Scotland (albeit of Italian heritage).

I have not looked at P and MB'd in 35 days, but I feel strangely empty. All of the undesirable aspects of my being which I attributed to P and MB are still with me. ie: irritability, lack of self esteem, apathy towards my wife, etc etc.

Is 35 days too early to start seeing changes?

BTW, I am 34 and have used P and MB since I was 17 years old. Before this period of sobriety, the best I managed was 90 days in 2006.

 

[Promise]

From what I've read on this forum, withdrawals come and go until about day 90 for most men.  You'll be up and down during the recovery period, with it generally getting easier as you go along.  To feel crappy and have withdrawals is natural.

This is what I've read though, I'm sure someone with more experience will put it all straight.