One clean day

S

survivor

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Survivor here.

Made it through for my first clean day after my last slip.

However, my brain has been chewing on the idea of waiting for my wife to go to sleep so I can take a peek. Instead I decided to blog my intentions to you folks and then turn off the computer instead.


Signing off for the night.
 
Brooklyn Jerry

Brooklyn Jerry

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    I have went 7 days with out looking at porn or having an O. Last night I was with my lady friend and things went well. A few times I went soft, but all in all it was fine.
    I did notice yesterday I was taking more notice women while out shopping.. Young or old they sure can get my attention.
    I am  sure not looking at porn or masturbating has increased my libido. I think the worse time for me was in the morning before going out, I would use the porn, then have lees interest in what was going on around me in real.
          My usual agenda for today, after a night of sex would be to come home in the morning and look at porn and jerkoff, ,thinking I wouldn't be with my lady for a few days so,what's the harm.
  From what I have been reading it takes some time for the brain to be ready for sex again,but by  using porn I had no problem .
      I have made up my mind not to search the web, and when I got  an email that wanted to me to look at an update to a porn site that I was on the mailing list,I deleted the account.
    I rather go some time jerk off free and feel horny, then always being sexually satisfied .

Even if I didn't have a partner I think masturbating once a week,but without using porn would be a better option. When I was a teen, I could jerk off daily with out porn, guess it was raging hormones, but it was natural. As we get older it is normal for our sex drive to diminish, so I feel the problem with porn is we are artificially trying to increase or sex drive.the problem is when we have the opportunity to have sex with a live person we are depleted.
 
OldHornyGuy

OldHornyGuy

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Keep up the good work Survivor.  Keep snuggling with your wife until the urge goes away.  You'll both appreciate it!

Peace and Stay Strong!
 
S

survivor

Member
Thanks guys!

On day two right now.

We went for a walk to a waterfall in a wilderness park earlier today. Had a great time together. However, triggers everywhere! We are back at the hotel right now and my wife is taking a nap (she will be having back surgery tomorrow).

And here I sit with a computer, uninterrupted time to myself, imagery raging through my brain and a huge yearning/craving in my gut. The craving is so strong right now it's almost palpable.

I know I gotta fight this. I need to be fully available for my partner tomorrow.

Gotta shut this thing down and do something constructive instead.


I'll check in again later on this evening.

Survivor
 
R

relapse king

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survivor

I read once that fighting an urge is like stretching your arms out and putting weights in your hands. no matter how heavy the weights are eventually your arms will get tired and you will not be able to hold them up. This is the same as fighting urges, your area of brain that fights the urge works very hard burning brain energy to fight the urge and eventually will become fatigued. The only way to avoid this is by changing the scenery and doing something else to focus your brain on something else and it's as if the urge disappears in the new task and you are free from the fight.   

good luck
 
S

survivor

Member
Slipped!

Too ashamed to write last night. Maybe I was unwilling to admit I'm afraid the surgery could go wrong and this was my way of avoiding the fear. Don't know. Does not matter now.

But I'm present and with her right now. Gotta go as we are on our way to the hospital.


Please wish us luck,

Survivor
 
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