This is my first post to the forum. I am 63 years old, married and have had a problem with pornography for a long time. I have not been intimate with my wife for over 5 years and my sex life during those years has consisted of watching and collecting online porn.
My life has been spiraling into an abyss that I am sure includes depression and my addiction is the major cause.
Last week, I decided I had to do something. My first step was to delete my entire porn collection and make a vow to myself that I was done. In the past when I felt things were getting out of control, I would taper off for a week or so, but I never vowed to quit.
I found this site and every day I've been reading articles, viewing videos, and hoping I've found the help I need. I had a talk with my wife and told her I was depressed (about six years ago I was treated for depression) but I did not have the courage to tell her I am addicted to porn. Frankly, I don't think she would understand and she would certainly be hurt.
So, this journal entry is another small step. I have been porn free for 6 days.
My life has been spiraling into an abyss that I am sure includes depression and my addiction is the major cause.
Last week, I decided I had to do something. My first step was to delete my entire porn collection and make a vow to myself that I was done. In the past when I felt things were getting out of control, I would taper off for a week or so, but I never vowed to quit.
I found this site and every day I've been reading articles, viewing videos, and hoping I've found the help I need. I had a talk with my wife and told her I was depressed (about six years ago I was treated for depression) but I did not have the courage to tell her I am addicted to porn. Frankly, I don't think she would understand and she would certainly be hurt.
So, this journal entry is another small step. I have been porn free for 6 days.