I discovered pleasuring myself when I was 12 and from then on it's been a problem. I know that some say that it is healthy and natural (and that others disagree) but I also know that things are only good in moderation and that never seemed an option. The whole idea of doing something that I knew my parents and church would forbid made it more appealing. Half a dozen times a day was no exception. I first realised I might have a problem at 13 when I had again done it so often that I had I guess friction wounds on my penis from doing it too much in a short time and even though I had already done it a lot in a short time I couldn't stop. It wasn't even pleasurable anymore.
So I tried to limit myself to once a day and felt good about myself when I could do that. Later I realised that it was my go-to method of dealing with any negative emotion. If I felt sad, rejected, out of place or if anything negative happened in my life it would be the thing I went to for comfort. I realised this after reading about alcoholism and how people addicted to alcohol would do the same and so never really dealed with the negativity in their life, but used it as a displacement. I realised that if I ever wanted to grow and mature as a person I could not continue doing this but had to find real and adult ways of dealing with my life.
Since then I've been trying to quit completely and that was harder than I thought. About a year ago I discovered that I would not have to deal with this issue on my own but that there was the online community of reddit nofap where I could talk to and get encouragement from others who for whatever reason also decided that their life would be better without it. This has been a great help to me. It's hard to try things on your own, like masturbating itself trying to stop was a secret part of my life and through nofap I could share this secret with others who would understand and that was a great relief. It also helped me to try and give others advice and sympathy.
Through reddit nofap I found the site yourbrainonporn and the articles there while dealing mostly with porn taught me a lot about how a sexual addiction works and ways of trying to get better. I made an account here in the hope that this medium would allow me to grow even more. On reddit posts dissapear down the queue quickly and I thought that this place might provide a more permanent record of what I am dealing with and how I progress back to health.
The methods I currently have are the following:
-Don't allow myself to touch myself at all except for bathroom and shower. No edging.
-Don't linger on sexual fantasies. having one is fine and expected, dragging them out is not.
-Only go to bed when tired.
-Don't sleep naked.
-Get up right away in the morning.
-Distract myself with a social activity or something that requires my full attention when things get difficult. Cold showers.
Two days ago I relapsed after having not fapped for a little over a month. I try not to feel too dissapointed because the way I see it abstaining for a month is a lot better than how it used to be, where I would often physically hurt, be tired and antisocial. But still I wish I could just be done with it.
Thanks for reading people, if you have anything to add, advice or critique don't hesitate.
So I tried to limit myself to once a day and felt good about myself when I could do that. Later I realised that it was my go-to method of dealing with any negative emotion. If I felt sad, rejected, out of place or if anything negative happened in my life it would be the thing I went to for comfort. I realised this after reading about alcoholism and how people addicted to alcohol would do the same and so never really dealed with the negativity in their life, but used it as a displacement. I realised that if I ever wanted to grow and mature as a person I could not continue doing this but had to find real and adult ways of dealing with my life.
Since then I've been trying to quit completely and that was harder than I thought. About a year ago I discovered that I would not have to deal with this issue on my own but that there was the online community of reddit nofap where I could talk to and get encouragement from others who for whatever reason also decided that their life would be better without it. This has been a great help to me. It's hard to try things on your own, like masturbating itself trying to stop was a secret part of my life and through nofap I could share this secret with others who would understand and that was a great relief. It also helped me to try and give others advice and sympathy.
Through reddit nofap I found the site yourbrainonporn and the articles there while dealing mostly with porn taught me a lot about how a sexual addiction works and ways of trying to get better. I made an account here in the hope that this medium would allow me to grow even more. On reddit posts dissapear down the queue quickly and I thought that this place might provide a more permanent record of what I am dealing with and how I progress back to health.
The methods I currently have are the following:
-Don't allow myself to touch myself at all except for bathroom and shower. No edging.
-Don't linger on sexual fantasies. having one is fine and expected, dragging them out is not.
-Only go to bed when tired.
-Don't sleep naked.
-Get up right away in the morning.
-Distract myself with a social activity or something that requires my full attention when things get difficult. Cold showers.
Two days ago I relapsed after having not fapped for a little over a month. I try not to feel too dissapointed because the way I see it abstaining for a month is a lot better than how it used to be, where I would often physically hurt, be tired and antisocial. But still I wish I could just be done with it.
Thanks for reading people, if you have anything to add, advice or critique don't hesitate.
