Hello, I am 23 year old guy. I want to tell my story in little detail, so that you experts can decide if its really because of porn.
First when i started watching porn, it was straight porn. and then later firstly i started browsing for naked pics of hot hairy men on google. I was not sure if i was gay or bi or straight. I had childhood male friend with whom i used to get naked and play with each others body. and we were doing it since childhood. back then i didn't even knew the terms gay or bi or straight. But by the age 16-17 i started reading about homo sexuality. Then i started watching Gay porn, a lot of it, and only used to like particular kind of men (little muscular, hairy and WITH MUSTACHE, and matured older than 30-35 ) so whenever i was on net , it took lot time to find correct porn with the type of man I like. So until 23 I had watched thousands of videos. even while watching straight porn i only used watch those where my type of man was present.
So that was just background story, and now I'm not worried about whether I'm Gay or Bi. I am worried about my ED. I'm still virgin, sort of because I can not penetrate and I lose my erection right at the point of entering. I have only been with men until now. I have never even kissed a girl until now.
So when I turned 23, i discovered a Gay dating website. I made few male friends. For the first date I only played role of bottom and lost my ass virginity, I wanted to top but he didn't allowed me to be top because he said he was top only. Next time with another guy who was bottom, when I tried to enter him, i just lost my erection all of sudden. and i could not even get it up after that and I didn't even come. So it was my first time trying to enter someone, I thought it could be because of performance anxiety , so i looked it up on internet and discovered term ED. and one thing I forgot to tell you that I am depressed these days because of not getting a job. and while reading about ED, one article said it could be due to Depression. after few day when I was again reading about ED I discovered the term "Porn induced ED"
So right now I am little confused whether my ED is because of Depression or excessive porn.?
I get very hard erection before going to sleep or when i wake up. so hard that my dick hurts little bit. so I think problem is not with my penis.
and I can masturbate with or without porn by thinking about my favorite porn OR by remembering my sexual encounters with few men I have been with. i get hard while doing that and can masturbate and come without any problem.
I joined that gay dating website about 4 months ago and had sex (i got fucked) about 3 and half months ago. after that I have tried at lease 4 times to penetrate but I have always lost erection no matter how hard it was while in foreplay.
and one more thing I want to point out before having sex for the first time I was watching too much porn . i used to watch porn many times a day and masturbate, some days masturbate at least twice a day. But after having sex for the first time I sort of lost interest in porn and my porn watching frequency reduced drastically.
and after reading on the internet and discovering Porn induced ED I have stopped watching porn. and I have also deactivated my dating account on website.
So I will now just list the questions I have in my mind,
1. could it be because of excessive porn or Depression
2. Can I indulge myself in fantasies? and also stop looking at my shirtless neighbor who is hot?
3. Should I stop having sex for few months? and by sex I mean being bottom and get fucked.? because I can only be bottom right now as I can not keep it hard when i go for penetration.
4. All the men I like are above 40-45, the one I like the most is 55, almost my father's age. I am only 23, So could it be because I don't feel like dominating them while having sex because they are so older then me.
5. should I try with a girl to test if it happens with females too. (but its really hard to get a decent girl here in India for one night stand )
6. and I am liking this one man very much, we chat a lot, normal topics mostly, rarely sexting, should i avoid chatting with him too much for few days until i recover from my ED.?
That is all i could think of right now, i will let you know if any more doubts come to my mind.
Thank you guys in advance and waiting for favorable reply to clear my doubts.
First when i started watching porn, it was straight porn. and then later firstly i started browsing for naked pics of hot hairy men on google. I was not sure if i was gay or bi or straight. I had childhood male friend with whom i used to get naked and play with each others body. and we were doing it since childhood. back then i didn't even knew the terms gay or bi or straight. But by the age 16-17 i started reading about homo sexuality. Then i started watching Gay porn, a lot of it, and only used to like particular kind of men (little muscular, hairy and WITH MUSTACHE, and matured older than 30-35 ) so whenever i was on net , it took lot time to find correct porn with the type of man I like. So until 23 I had watched thousands of videos. even while watching straight porn i only used watch those where my type of man was present.
So that was just background story, and now I'm not worried about whether I'm Gay or Bi. I am worried about my ED. I'm still virgin, sort of because I can not penetrate and I lose my erection right at the point of entering. I have only been with men until now. I have never even kissed a girl until now.
So when I turned 23, i discovered a Gay dating website. I made few male friends. For the first date I only played role of bottom and lost my ass virginity, I wanted to top but he didn't allowed me to be top because he said he was top only. Next time with another guy who was bottom, when I tried to enter him, i just lost my erection all of sudden. and i could not even get it up after that and I didn't even come. So it was my first time trying to enter someone, I thought it could be because of performance anxiety , so i looked it up on internet and discovered term ED. and one thing I forgot to tell you that I am depressed these days because of not getting a job. and while reading about ED, one article said it could be due to Depression. after few day when I was again reading about ED I discovered the term "Porn induced ED"
So right now I am little confused whether my ED is because of Depression or excessive porn.?
I get very hard erection before going to sleep or when i wake up. so hard that my dick hurts little bit. so I think problem is not with my penis.
and I can masturbate with or without porn by thinking about my favorite porn OR by remembering my sexual encounters with few men I have been with. i get hard while doing that and can masturbate and come without any problem.
I joined that gay dating website about 4 months ago and had sex (i got fucked) about 3 and half months ago. after that I have tried at lease 4 times to penetrate but I have always lost erection no matter how hard it was while in foreplay.
and one more thing I want to point out before having sex for the first time I was watching too much porn . i used to watch porn many times a day and masturbate, some days masturbate at least twice a day. But after having sex for the first time I sort of lost interest in porn and my porn watching frequency reduced drastically.
and after reading on the internet and discovering Porn induced ED I have stopped watching porn. and I have also deactivated my dating account on website.
So I will now just list the questions I have in my mind,
1. could it be because of excessive porn or Depression
2. Can I indulge myself in fantasies? and also stop looking at my shirtless neighbor who is hot?
3. Should I stop having sex for few months? and by sex I mean being bottom and get fucked.? because I can only be bottom right now as I can not keep it hard when i go for penetration.
4. All the men I like are above 40-45, the one I like the most is 55, almost my father's age. I am only 23, So could it be because I don't feel like dominating them while having sex because they are so older then me.
5. should I try with a girl to test if it happens with females too. (but its really hard to get a decent girl here in India for one night stand
)6. and I am liking this one man very much, we chat a lot, normal topics mostly, rarely sexting, should i avoid chatting with him too much for few days until i recover from my ED.?
That is all i could think of right now, i will let you know if any more doubts come to my mind.
Thank you guys in advance and waiting for favorable reply to clear my doubts.
