I guess i failed yet again...... (desperate need of advice here!)

[FailBoy10126]

Hello guys my name is "Fail" and this is my second post in this forum. I joined this forum last August 6 discussing my situation about me having PIED. Did my reboot that following day. I manage to reach 40 days of no fap but.......

just right now I masturbated (not to porn but...) to a picture of my hot classmate (I'm disgusted with myself). The picture itself was not a bikini pic but a erotic sexual selfie picture that really turned me on and prompt me to masturbate unleashing a ton of load to my Ipad Screen.

*also as a side note: before the incident, I was browsing around FHM models which is the cause why I failed my reboot.

I know I failed my reboot and gonna reset my counter but did i really mess up badly again? Is browsing for bikini/sexy pics equivalent to having watched porn during reboot?

After 40 days I failed yet again (hence my username is called "Fail").

I need help for a advice how to overcome this. I want to be a changed man. What should I do if I am having a urge to wank?

 

[vispren]

Don't beat yourself on the head over this. In my book, you are not a failure. Reaching 40 days is something I, personally, can't even imagine, yet. 

Failing is something of a prospect for all rebooters I believe. Your mistake was not blocking lust and not looking the other way. I hope you pick yourself up after this and learn from your experience.

If I fail, I will definetly go on with this, because in the past week I found out so much about myself. That I can do it. I haven't had this big of a break from P, M or O in about 20 years, give or take. I failed at other segments of my life and I still got up and continued.

Rebooting isn't just changing our habbits and getting a different perspective on our porn use. It is a different perspective on life. And resetting your counter isn't such a big thing, when you zoom out and look at life as a whole.

At least, that's the way I see it. Here, take my hand

 

[TheBadger]

Don't worry about the fact you masturbated and change your name to success man! 40 days is a lot better than many people manage at their first go! See if you can top it next time or free yourself permanently. The need to masturbate again is due to the chaser effect relating to dopamine. When you O you release loads of dopamine which reinforces to idea of yes do that again! Hence why you felt like you needed to go again. Hop in a cold shower and ignore it next time!

Keep on pushing though!