ClayJack93
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Hello everyone. My name is Clayton, I'm here from yourbrainonporn, and I have (what I consider) a severe case of PIED/MIED/TMS and addiction to masturbation. I am currently 20 years old, I have been watching porn since I was 14 years old. I've always been an excessive masturbator. I never saw a problem with watching porn, and never noticed any problems from it. At 16 I found a girlfriend which suppressed any negative findings I saw until about 18, when we broke up and all I had was masturbation was when I began to notice the anxiety, the low libido, and the erectile disfunction.
I'm a pretty low point with my masturbation induced anxiety and ED. I suffer from what I deem as traumatic masturbatory syndrome. I rarely masturbate in a prone position, but, I masturbate excessively. Like extremely excessively. Put it this way. Have you heard of a man masturbation to orgasm 30 times withinn approx 15-20 minutes? Now what about 2 or 3 days in a row of that? What about masturbating to orgasm 20-30 times back to back with death grip multiple weeks? Some of you might not even believe it possible for a male to orgasm 20+ times in a sitting, but it is, and its effects are not good.
Right now I am at 1 week of no masturbation to ejaculation, I have masturbated with pre seminal fluid, which impacts me but not as severely as ejaculation. I have alot of social anxiety, I'm not comfortable being around people, I feel insecure. I am hit with intrusive thoughts that are annoying to deal with. My libido is incredibly low, as is my ability to get an erection. I am literally at a point right now where I could have a 10/10 model chick butt naked sitting on my lap, neither of us with clothes on, and I would not get an erection at all. The only way I can get an erection is to either masturbate, with or without porn/images, or to engage in sex, with an ample amount of foreplay. This is in significant contrast to getting an erection at the sight of a fully clothed woman like I used to be able to. I feel like I've drained myself of all of my vital sex fluids and am sitting on an empty tank. I'm also at a point where any masturbation to ejaculation will send me right back to square one of anxiety and zero libido. I am at such a low point of seminal fluids and the negative effects of that, that even slight masturbation that produces pre-seminal fluid exacerbates my problems. I am at a point right now where I can not masturbate or touch at all.
Where I want to be, is I want my libido to recover, and along with it the anxiety and mental health problems to fade away. I want to get an erection at the sight of a woman, the thought of a woman, I want to be able to get an erection with no effort. I want to feel confident about myself again. I want to allow my seminal fluid to regenerate so that my testosterone levels are not low (not sure if they are or not)
What I've done and plan to do. I've installed web block software on my computer, with a password I do not know. I will not look at any more porn. I will also not watch youtube videos. I will not masturbate at all. I will not masturbate at all for atleast three months, no porn, no videos, no images. After three months I will see where I am at, and see if I need to go longer. I will not do any programming with a woman that involves sexual intercourse, until my recovery is complete and I feel able to ejaculate without relapsing into my problem. If I find myself with a temptation I will post here "Temptation block" as many times as I need to to stop the temptation. I will update how I feel throughout my recovery. I will reward myself for every week completed without masturbation.
Does anyone have experience with a case that is severe like mine? Is my case common? Will I be able to recover from such traumatic masturbation? Can anyone offer insight to my case? Ideas? All support is extremely appreciated.
I'm a pretty low point with my masturbation induced anxiety and ED. I suffer from what I deem as traumatic masturbatory syndrome. I rarely masturbate in a prone position, but, I masturbate excessively. Like extremely excessively. Put it this way. Have you heard of a man masturbation to orgasm 30 times withinn approx 15-20 minutes? Now what about 2 or 3 days in a row of that? What about masturbating to orgasm 20-30 times back to back with death grip multiple weeks? Some of you might not even believe it possible for a male to orgasm 20+ times in a sitting, but it is, and its effects are not good.
Right now I am at 1 week of no masturbation to ejaculation, I have masturbated with pre seminal fluid, which impacts me but not as severely as ejaculation. I have alot of social anxiety, I'm not comfortable being around people, I feel insecure. I am hit with intrusive thoughts that are annoying to deal with. My libido is incredibly low, as is my ability to get an erection. I am literally at a point right now where I could have a 10/10 model chick butt naked sitting on my lap, neither of us with clothes on, and I would not get an erection at all. The only way I can get an erection is to either masturbate, with or without porn/images, or to engage in sex, with an ample amount of foreplay. This is in significant contrast to getting an erection at the sight of a fully clothed woman like I used to be able to. I feel like I've drained myself of all of my vital sex fluids and am sitting on an empty tank. I'm also at a point where any masturbation to ejaculation will send me right back to square one of anxiety and zero libido. I am at such a low point of seminal fluids and the negative effects of that, that even slight masturbation that produces pre-seminal fluid exacerbates my problems. I am at a point right now where I can not masturbate or touch at all.
Where I want to be, is I want my libido to recover, and along with it the anxiety and mental health problems to fade away. I want to get an erection at the sight of a woman, the thought of a woman, I want to be able to get an erection with no effort. I want to feel confident about myself again. I want to allow my seminal fluid to regenerate so that my testosterone levels are not low (not sure if they are or not)
What I've done and plan to do. I've installed web block software on my computer, with a password I do not know. I will not look at any more porn. I will also not watch youtube videos. I will not masturbate at all. I will not masturbate at all for atleast three months, no porn, no videos, no images. After three months I will see where I am at, and see if I need to go longer. I will not do any programming with a woman that involves sexual intercourse, until my recovery is complete and I feel able to ejaculate without relapsing into my problem. If I find myself with a temptation I will post here "Temptation block" as many times as I need to to stop the temptation. I will update how I feel throughout my recovery. I will reward myself for every week completed without masturbation.
Does anyone have experience with a case that is severe like mine? Is my case common? Will I be able to recover from such traumatic masturbation? Can anyone offer insight to my case? Ideas? All support is extremely appreciated.