TommyVercetty29
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Thanks for the support bro!
Anyways its been 6 months since she left me and i still can't stop thinking about her.
It's wired, at the beginning i was so indifferent toward it, i just had fun with her, i was really into another girl. But as the time passed i have started to actually feel huge comfort around her, i got erections just from kissing, but i was still afraid to have sex.
So i avoided our dates every now and then for a few days, making her think that i dont care. Honestly i pushed her back into his arms.I was the one acting weird, maybe i should of tell her everything at the start...
So that last weekend in December when we had that bad sex ( i was struggling to maintain an erection during foreplay, she was going for BJ and i stopped her, told her i wasn't ready, and in the next moment i just decided to penetrate, and it was very pleasant, i actually felt it, but i came after 3-4 strokes, inside her...she was pissed when she noticed that.this was probably due to a 29 day monk mode and performance anxiety combined with ED...anyhow second time i was to stressed to try again.In the morning i got it up easily but came in 10 seconds...) was our last time together, she picked her long time boyfriend over me.
So guys its fucking painful to see that someone who looked you with sparkle in her eyes, now look kind of down on you, and you are so in love...
Anyhow she teased me a few times on instagram, sent some meaningless messages, but i know she is back with him, although she's hiding that.
Every day i wonder how future would be bright if my brain wasn't hooked on fucking porn.
I know i must forget about her, but this sounds so fucking unfair, life doesn't have to be so cruel.
This motivated me to fight so im way passed 90 days. Also i haven't watched porn for 7 months.
Im afraid that performance anxiety could be the issue in my rewire process, once i get together with someone sexually atractive...
Good i want to try with her again, i need a second chance...
I will be cured se day and i will be ready to help rising awareness in my country on this problem.
Anyways its been 6 months since she left me and i still can't stop thinking about her.
It's wired, at the beginning i was so indifferent toward it, i just had fun with her, i was really into another girl. But as the time passed i have started to actually feel huge comfort around her, i got erections just from kissing, but i was still afraid to have sex.
So i avoided our dates every now and then for a few days, making her think that i dont care. Honestly i pushed her back into his arms.I was the one acting weird, maybe i should of tell her everything at the start...
So that last weekend in December when we had that bad sex ( i was struggling to maintain an erection during foreplay, she was going for BJ and i stopped her, told her i wasn't ready, and in the next moment i just decided to penetrate, and it was very pleasant, i actually felt it, but i came after 3-4 strokes, inside her...she was pissed when she noticed that.this was probably due to a 29 day monk mode and performance anxiety combined with ED...anyhow second time i was to stressed to try again.In the morning i got it up easily but came in 10 seconds...) was our last time together, she picked her long time boyfriend over me.
So guys its fucking painful to see that someone who looked you with sparkle in her eyes, now look kind of down on you, and you are so in love...
Anyhow she teased me a few times on instagram, sent some meaningless messages, but i know she is back with him, although she's hiding that.
Every day i wonder how future would be bright if my brain wasn't hooked on fucking porn.
I know i must forget about her, but this sounds so fucking unfair, life doesn't have to be so cruel.
This motivated me to fight so im way passed 90 days. Also i haven't watched porn for 7 months.
Im afraid that performance anxiety could be the issue in my rewire process, once i get together with someone sexually atractive...
Good i want to try with her again, i need a second chance...
I will be cured se day and i will be ready to help rising awareness in my country on this problem.