uolihp
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Hi everyone,
I watch this website videos on youtube and it's been some kind of revelation...
(FYI, english is not my native language and it's not easy to write about this since it's the very first time I write or talk about it.)
I'm almost 30, married for 3 years and living together for 6 years. Things are going quite well, my wife is beautiful and we are planning to have kids soon (we been trying for the last 6 months).
I've been using porn for years and my addiction evolved with internet evolution and the connection speed of the place I was living at the time (I'm traveling a lot... discovering new stuff, might have something to do with dopamine...)
For almost a year, I have a good internet connection again and my addiction has come back and started to impact negatively on me and on my relation.
I learned on this site that I was doing something called edging (masturbating to porn without orgasm) and that this was bad. We have sex about every 2 days with my wife, it has decreased a bit since we decided to have a baby when we've seen that this was better to "hold" for 1 or to 2 days to increase sperm quality (that's why I'm edging... call me stupid). Before that, it was more often so I didn't have to complain. And now, once every 2 days, I still don't have to complain!
So yesterday after watching the videos, I decided to delete all porn I had on my computer... a major step for me and I am resolute to stop going online for porn... I presuming it's going to be hard and that's why I thought this forum could help me.
I stopped because I don't want to be addicted to anything (I completely stop smoking 3 years ago and stopped smoking pot 5 years ago). I don't want to be hold back and I want to realize my full human potential in my life. This article describe pretty well how I see my 30s http://markmanson.net/10-life-lessons-excel-30s
I don't have ED problems at all, sometimes it just a bit hard to orgasm with my wife... it takes sometimes and she might get bored which is not good. And pleasure is not what it used to be a couple of months ago.
The videos also made me wonder if I was not "less in love" with my wife. I'm still in love but maybe my feeling are blurred and I can't tolerate this. I will stop using porn but I will definitely not stop having sex with my wife, she doesn't know about my problem.
I hope this forum will help me end for good. I will tell you how I'm doing with this and I'll try to help others if I can...
I watch this website videos on youtube and it's been some kind of revelation...
(FYI, english is not my native language and it's not easy to write about this since it's the very first time I write or talk about it.)
I'm almost 30, married for 3 years and living together for 6 years. Things are going quite well, my wife is beautiful and we are planning to have kids soon (we been trying for the last 6 months).
I've been using porn for years and my addiction evolved with internet evolution and the connection speed of the place I was living at the time (I'm traveling a lot... discovering new stuff, might have something to do with dopamine...)
For almost a year, I have a good internet connection again and my addiction has come back and started to impact negatively on me and on my relation.
I learned on this site that I was doing something called edging (masturbating to porn without orgasm) and that this was bad. We have sex about every 2 days with my wife, it has decreased a bit since we decided to have a baby when we've seen that this was better to "hold" for 1 or to 2 days to increase sperm quality (that's why I'm edging... call me stupid). Before that, it was more often so I didn't have to complain. And now, once every 2 days, I still don't have to complain!
So yesterday after watching the videos, I decided to delete all porn I had on my computer... a major step for me and I am resolute to stop going online for porn... I presuming it's going to be hard and that's why I thought this forum could help me.
I stopped because I don't want to be addicted to anything (I completely stop smoking 3 years ago and stopped smoking pot 5 years ago). I don't want to be hold back and I want to realize my full human potential in my life. This article describe pretty well how I see my 30s http://markmanson.net/10-life-lessons-excel-30s
I don't have ED problems at all, sometimes it just a bit hard to orgasm with my wife... it takes sometimes and she might get bored which is not good. And pleasure is not what it used to be a couple of months ago.
The videos also made me wonder if I was not "less in love" with my wife. I'm still in love but maybe my feeling are blurred and I can't tolerate this. I will stop using porn but I will definitely not stop having sex with my wife, she doesn't know about my problem.
I hope this forum will help me end for good. I will tell you how I'm doing with this and I'll try to help others if I can...