D
Destined4Greatness
Guest
I'm turning 20 in a couple months and I've been PMOing since i was about 14 so it's 6 years now. I had low self esteem growing up, got bullied, and didn't have any luck with women. I turned to porn in order to make myself feel better and developed an addiction. It started with softcore but after a year or so I was PMOing to hardcore porn everyday. I've done it to some pretty weird and nasty stuff which I'm ashamed to even think about now. I would do it for hours on end sometimes. I first realized my problem after I turned 18 and went to the strip club for the first time. I got a lap dance from a stripper and even though she was completely naked I couldn't get up. This happened a couple times but I didn't take it seriously enough to stop watching porn. As I got older I began to gain more confidence in myself and come out of my shell. I'm currently a junior in college now and as I've gotten more involved on campus I've met a lot of women. I'm still a virgin but about a week ago I had my first real sexual encounter with a female friend and I couldn't get it up. It was really embarrassing and she said she would have walked out on me if she wasn't my friend. I did some research and came across YBOP and Reboot Nation. Needless to say, I realized what had to be done and I've completely given up watching porn and masturbating altogether. I'm on day 9 now after a week of horrible urges and withdrawal symptoms. I have no intention of relapsing but I'm just afraid of what will happen if I'm with someone and I'm still not rewired by then.
